I know i don"t see eye to eye with a lot people here on certain issues but your thoughts and prayers will really be appreciated.
Everyone is in shock right now because just last year, the doctors said she was cancer free. Just a couple months ago, she got sick again. The cancer had progressed into her liver and brain. Her health declined just that quickly.
We had been separated for months but i still loved her. Even though we were separated, we still talked on the phone every day.
I feel like we could have eventually worked it out. im kind of in full freak out mode right now so just pray for me.
My husband and I started dating in 1973, got married in 1976, and he passed away in 2014. He and I were very close and I never stressed. If I was anxious, he'd point me to God and that calmed my nerves. About a year after he passed, I had an anxiety attack. I had never experienced anything like that in my life. My blood pressure was through the roof and my heart was pounding. I couldn't calm myself down. I went to the ER and they explained I was having an anxiety attack. I finally got settled and have never another episode since then.My pastor says he knows a councilor who will speak to me free of charge.
Im making an appointment to see a mental health professional. I have OCD related anxiety and it often helped me calm down to call her if something had upset me. Or sometimes I would call just to tell her something funny that had happened. Even though we were separated, I still called her at least 3 times a day. I know there are going to be times I want to pick up the phone and call her. Its going to leave a deep void.