I am due to have my second child in 5 or so weeks. I had severe complications after the birth of my first, and I'm very scared. My doctor is aware of my medical history and has assured me I will be watched closely. I'm still so scared of leaving my kids without a mom. The anxiety I'm feeling has even made me question my salvation. Does the fact that I don't want to die mean I'm not really a Christian? Should I be ready to die even though it means I'm leaving a four year old and newborn behind? I feel I should be excited to meet my new baby, not thinking like this. Please pray for my peace.