I’m so sorry to hear that, friend. Wish I could give you a hug. Divorce is painful no matter what the cause. I just said a prayer for you and your husband, and I hope that God will provide the comfort, wisdom, and help you need at this time. Have you ever considered talking with a counselor? Do you think that's something that might be helpful for you personally? A caring professional might be able to give you solid guidance. Your situation may seem impossible right now, but I do believe there is hope. Stay strong. Hugs & prayers!