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hi everybody,
uhm...im vevry excited to get tochat with all of you.
the reason why i joined this site is because i have been a christian for almost 2years nowbut i dont have any friends.when i first became a christian i had great friends but i was in the US at the time but than i had to go back to my home country.i have been back for a year now and i havent got a single friend.the church that i attend has mostly teenagers and older people but not alot of young adults.
i know it's not that big of a deal but i feel lonely,frustrated..been having ttroublewith my boyfriend,having a hard time with raising my 3year old son..andi have no one to talk to about these things..yes i talk to god everyday about these things but sometimes i want someone who will actually talk back to me right away and share my feelings.
almost everyday when i wake up i wish i was dead...i feel useless and purposeless.i usually pray and read my bible everyday but for the pas couple of months i have been slacking.
i really do not wanna go back to my old life but i feel like im slowly slipping back into my old ways of life..being angry all the time,cussing.being disrespectful,mentallly and verbally abusing my bf...i just cant look myslef in the mirror..im dishonoring gods holy spirit by the way i live.
being saved is truly the best thing that happened in my life..i wouldnt trade that fo ranything else...i messed up most of life..broke all of gods commandmends on a daily basis..but god had mercy on me and he forgave me for my sins..and i love him soo much for that.i dont wanna continue living my life like this anymore..it's liek i know what to do but i dont have the encouragement to do it..i cant really explain it...
has anyone gone through this? or has any advise for me?encouragent..
god bless
uhm...im vevry excited to get tochat with all of you.
the reason why i joined this site is because i have been a christian for almost 2years nowbut i dont have any friends.when i first became a christian i had great friends but i was in the US at the time but than i had to go back to my home country.i have been back for a year now and i havent got a single friend.the church that i attend has mostly teenagers and older people but not alot of young adults.
i know it's not that big of a deal but i feel lonely,frustrated..been having ttroublewith my boyfriend,having a hard time with raising my 3year old son..andi have no one to talk to about these things..yes i talk to god everyday about these things but sometimes i want someone who will actually talk back to me right away and share my feelings.
almost everyday when i wake up i wish i was dead...i feel useless and purposeless.i usually pray and read my bible everyday but for the pas couple of months i have been slacking.
i really do not wanna go back to my old life but i feel like im slowly slipping back into my old ways of life..being angry all the time,cussing.being disrespectful,mentallly and verbally abusing my bf...i just cant look myslef in the mirror..im dishonoring gods holy spirit by the way i live.
being saved is truly the best thing that happened in my life..i wouldnt trade that fo ranything else...i messed up most of life..broke all of gods commandmends on a daily basis..but god had mercy on me and he forgave me for my sins..and i love him soo much for that.i dont wanna continue living my life like this anymore..it's liek i know what to do but i dont have the encouragement to do it..i cant really explain it...
has anyone gone through this? or has any advise for me?encouragent..
god bless