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[Thunderrr-mental]

I'm just wondering if Adam and Eve had taught both Cain and able to bring an animal offering to God for their sin,

So maybe they could be connected to God and be blood covenant friends with him.

Do you believe there could be a mothers intuition here, because cain brought a fruit offering that was rejected

Or does the mother's intuition go further and she had been told By God to teach there's sons to bring a blood offering,

Only she knew Cain would not,

Is this the reason God rejected cains offering.

 

[Blain]

you are more loved and more appreciated than you realise here

Theres no need to lack confidence friend.

Especially when you speak such good insight from the lord, your patience kindness and tolerance of people is a blessing this place needs more of

I appreciate your kinds words to be honest I am very conflicted if I should even come on here at all when I do come here it is scarce something just doesn't feel right when I do I don't even know why I just feel distrubed inside and even dread coming on here

on top of that I am sure I am a broken record on here I doubt anyone takes me seriously and I accepted that that would happen but on top of that the things going on in my life the health issues the legal stuff that my family is plotting and warfare most days I have no strength or energy always feeling sick and weak and it becomes so hard to imagine anything will change

The funny thing is I used to baost about beautiful surredner like true surrender is and I asked him for a deeper one but I think in a way I got what I asked for because this is a different type of surrender one where it can only be him that anything can change I fight a war I cannot win no matter what I do say or think it is very dark and strong sapping any hope or light always in the way any time I try to move forward all the while I hold tightly to him because in the end he is all I have even if he allows all this to keep going

But as of now I cannot stand and I do not have it in me to be a light I feel like a weak abandaned wet dog in the rain and I am not going to pretend that I am in any way still clinging to faith, I believe in him and I still when he is ready am willing to prove everything I claimed to be true but not unless he is dead serious no talk no mere claims of faith the real thing otherwise I refuse to stand I didn't believe in all this just to be talk I was willing to put own self image in jeperdy just to speak of his wonders so right now I am weak defeated alone powerless but my resolve will never chamge I believe I have seen and tasted the real deal so until he is ready to take all this and put it to work I refuse to try to be strong again

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

I appreciate your kinds words to be honest I am very conflicted if I should even come on here at all when I do come here it is scarce something just doesn't feel right when I do I don't even know why I just feel distrubed inside and even dread coming on here

on top of that I am sure I am a broken record on here I doubt anyone takes me seriously and I accepted that that would happen but on top of that the things going on in my life the health issues the legal stuff that my family is plotting and warfare most days I have no strength or energy always feeling sick and weak and it becomes so hard to imagine anything will change

The funny thing is I used to baost about beautiful surredner like true surrender is and I asked him for a deeper one but I think in a way I got what I asked for because this is a different type of surrender one where it can only be him that anything can change I fight a war I cannot win no matter what I do say or think it is very dark and strong sapping any hope or light always in the way any time I try to move forward all the while I hold tightly to him because in the end he is all I have even if he allows all this to keep going

But as of now I cannot stand and I do not have it in me to be a light I feel like a weak abandaned wet dog in the rain and I am not going to pretend that I am in any way still clinging to faith, I believe in him and I still when he is ready am willing to prove everything I claimed to be true but not unless he is dead serious no talk no mere claims of faith the real thing otherwise I refuse to stand I didn't believe in all this just to be talk I was willing to put own self image in jeperdy just to speak of his wonders so right now I am weak defeated alone powerless but my resolve will never chamge I believe I have seen and tasted the real deal so until he is ready to take all this and put it to work I refuse to try to be strong again

You've got to stand firm, and endure untill the end bro.

This is what you told me, people are in there own little world bro, and so many in there own under standing of scripture,.

The world is full of people acting like antichrists, there just crawling out of the wood work.

It's the great apostacy bro.

We live in a world where so many are behaving like little demi gods, preaching there own gospel, a lack of sharing and willingness to be taught anything.

We also live in a world where peoples love is growing colder.

And your coming to place where many want to argue, here at cc,..so your aways going to get mocked here bro by some,

You have to stand firm, your going to make your self ill worrying about what others think of you,.. it's more important what your new friends think of you, like the new friends you have made, not the old ones who have upset you,

 

[Blain]

You've got to stand firm, and endure untill the end bro.

This is what you told me, people are in there own little world bro, and so many in there own under standing of scripture,.

The world is full of people acting like antichrists, there just crawling out of the wood work.

It's the great apostacy bro.

We live in a world where so many are behaving like little demi gods, preaching there own gospel, a lack of sharing and willingness to be taught anything.

We also live in a world where peoples love is growing colder.

And your coming to place where many want to argue, here at cc,..so your aways going to get mocked here bro by some,

You have to stand firm, your going to make your self ill worrying about what others think of you,.. it's more important what your new friends think of you, like the new friends you have made, not the old ones who have upset you,

Yes I si beed to remain strong but am one who is not string byselves I am one of bonds of a connection of the hearts the type who is only stong not because of themselves but because of thge strength ofthers

You've got to stand firm, and endure untill the end bro.

This is what you told me, people are in there own little world bro, and so many in there own under standing of scripture,.

The world is full of people acting like antichrists, there just crawling out of the wood work.

It's the great apostacy bro.

We live in a world where so many are behaving like little demi gods, preaching there own gospel, a lack of sharing and willingness to be taught anything.

We also live in a world where peoples love is growing colder.

And your coming to place where many want to argue, here at cc,..so your aways going to get mocked here bro by some,

You have to stand firm, your going to make your self ill worrying about what others think of you,.. it's more important what your new friends think of you, like the new friends you have made, not the old ones who have upset you,

I also wanted to let you know I am very grateful I can talk to you I can be honest with you and that is a treasure not taken lightly I even just last nihjt tried to be honest with my family but as per usual my words fell on deaf ears it is so jard going through so much but you cannot really talk to people about it,

But I have met many like this those unseen unheard misunderstood hidden in plain sight I have seen the results of our conviction our so called faith so many are far more hurt than healed and I suppose because I understand this pain a pain that you cannot express in a single conversation I was shocked to find out people like this were shocked to find out I was a Christian

our reputation is not good I mean can you imagine hearing how everything you call Christian has only damaged and hurt others? To be having people shocked you are a Christian? all the while asking yourself if you were alwayts in the wrong if it is your fault if you failed and just wasnt good enough like per usual you try you give your all but every time the results are the same,


i din't mean to rant and I am already tired I will always be honest andf open but it seems it is up to him to decide when things csn change and I come on in here but because I need help we don't fight against flesh and blood and trust me this is very true but I understand I need the real thing real actual help I simply am not strong enough but surely all this has to be meant for something I cannot stop thinkinh of yhat river of

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

Yes I si beed to remain strong but am one who is not string byselves I am one of bonds of a connection of the hearts the type who is only stong not because of themselves but because of thge strength ofthers

I also wanted to let you know I am very grateful I can talk to you I can be honest with you and that is a treasure not taken lightly I even just last nihjt tried to be honest with my family but as per usual my words fell on deaf ears it is so jard going through so much but you cannot really talk to people about it,

But I have met many like this those unseen unheard misunderstood hidden in plain sight I have seen the results of our conviction our so called faith so many are far more hurt than healed and I suppose because I understand this pain a pain that you cannot express in a single conversation I was shocked to find out people like this were shocked to find out I was a Christian

our reputation is not good I mean can you imagine hearing how everything you call Christian has only damaged and hurt others? To be having people shocked you are a Christian? all the while asking yourself if you were alwayts in the wrong if it is your fault if you failed and just wasnt good enough like per usual you try you give your all but every time the results are the same,


i din't mean to rant and I am already tired I will always be honest andf open but it seems it is up to him to decide when things csn change and I come on in here but because I need help we don't fight against flesh and blood and trust me this is very true but I understand I need the real thing real actual help I simply am not strong enough but surely all this has to be meant for something I cannot stop thinkinh of yhat river of

I understand you can't be happy unless the church is happy. But I can assure you brother the true church does exist in people and there are people out there, who are happy and at peace.

I know you should love your enemy, but you really should not suffer for them.

You may suffer for the church. But how do you know your suffering for the true church.

We should suffer in each others troubles by sharing in each others trials.

But you know there's also a redemptive suffering. Where your made to believe you should suffer for someone else's sin.

This kind of suffering is false, and it stems from a Roman Catholic theology.

But you know you can suffer for those in prison, and feel a loss and suffer there sin that way, but that would be on the grounds they are forgiven. And that they shouldn't need to suffer anymore in prison.

Or be shamed, for there sin anymore.

I care about you blain, and I don't want to discuss your personal affairs in public, I'll pm you soon

 

[Blain]

I understand you can't be happy unless the church is happy. But I can assure you brother the true church does exist in people and there are people out there, who are happy and at peace.

I know you should love your enemy, but you really should not suffer for them.

You may suffer for the church. But how do you know your suffering for the true church.

We should suffer in each others troubles by sharing in each others trials.

But you know there's also a redemptive suffering. Where your made to believe you should suffer for someone else's sin.

This kind of suffering is false, and it stems from a Roman Catholic theology.

But you know you can suffer for those in prison, and feel a loss and suffer there sin that way, but that would be on the grounds they are forgiven. And that they shouldn't need to suffer anymore in prison.

Or be shamed, for there sin anymore.

I care about you blain, and I don't want to discuss your personal affairs in public, I'll pm you soon

I just want to say I am grateful and honor him with your growth I can sense a change in you I reached out to you at first because I had what you needed at the time and I paid attention to your journey and honestly I am just so glad and so overwhelmed with who you have become it seems in the end my thoery about you was not wrong I was told by many to give up on you how I was to trusting even other so called prophets I always blocked in some way even though talking over the phone with these people gave me a sense of somoene understanding but you are always there you never gave up on me to everyone else I just complain I just am seen as a way that isn't how it is at all even the closest people in my life I cannot propmise I will be able to stay true as far as remaining strong as rmeaining resliant I have nothing left to give faith and beliging has become pointless to me as it never mattered how much I believed how much I trusted him the faith ti keep going with little or no reslutls I know everything I claimed I spoke everything he tuaght me and I openly spoke of it on here is true I never have to consider any about about it when I spoke it on here it was as if it was written on stone I am sure I seem like a false prophet a false teacher especially with how things turned against me how I sound like a broken record how everything I believed and said has so far just been all talk but I tatsed for myself only a small tatse I get no results i believe in vain seemingly but who he is what he is who we are it is all so much more than what we see in our first layer of understanding

Whatever it is I am lacking to fulfill and prove what he taught me and shwoed me I am waiting for because I clearly don't have whatever is needed to prove that reality is false that truly anything is possible with him but more than that that we can sek him gave him and have him so intimately connected to us that there is no sperarateion no boundaries betwee but that is the key word TO him we make all kinds of excuses that I have never personally seen in scrip[turen physical and spiritual how many times it is said it is in his timing there are always limitations sdome kind of excuse but this isn't what I saw, Jesus merely said ask and you will recieve how the faith of a mustard seed can move a mountain when it comes spiritual God and man we pray to him we ask for fish and bread and it is given when this happened was there any other conditions or did they simply ask and recieve? was the bread and fish with conditions or not?

what did he say? has it ever mattered how we concieve things or undersrtand things or is hos word the actual authority? if his word is the actual word of God than any interpretation any reason or excuse we give as to why things work the way they work seems like a copout but I won't deny life has been absoultely brutal since I started on this path I am not open because I want attention or need pity how would that change anything?

I am open because I have to believe that is is all not for nothing that somehow my pain and struggles shyowing my weakness would somehow be able to reach those that need it

pain is not only the best teacher but more than anything I have seen it be able to connect to and help people I wish I knew how to give up it would be so much easier but I am stubborn I never know how to really give up but yes perhaps pm would be a better idea I tend to be to honest and I suspect I am getting on peoples nerves1

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

I just want to say I am grateful and honor him with your growth I can sense a change in you I reached out to you at first because I had what you needed at the time and I paid attention to your journey and honestly I am just so glad and so overwhelmed with who you have become it seems in the end my thoery about you was not wrong I was told by many to give up on you how I was to trusting even other so called prophets I always blocked in some way even though talking over the phone with these people gave me a sense of somoene understanding but you are always there you never gave up on me to everyone else I just complain I just am seen as a way that isn't how it is at all even the closest people in my life I cannot propmise I will be able to stay true as far as remaining strong as rmeaining resliant I have nothing left to give faith and beliging has become pointless to me as it never mattered how much I believed how much I trusted him the faith ti keep going with little or no reslutls I know everything I claimed I spoke everything he tuaght me and I openly spoke of it on here is true I never have to consider any about about it when I spoke it on here it was as if it was written on stone I am sure I seem like a false prophet a false teacher especially with how things turned against me how I sound like a broken record how everything I believed and said has so far just been all talk but I tatsed for myself only a small tatse I get no results i believe in vain seemingly but who he is what he is who we are it is all so much more than what we see in our first layer of understanding

Whatever it is I am lacking to fulfill and prove what he taught me and shwoed me I am waiting for because I clearly don't have whatever is needed to prove that reality is false that truly anything is possible with him but more than that that we can sek him gave him and have him so intimately connected to us that there is no sperarateion no boundaries betwee but that is the key word TO him we make all kinds of excuses that I have never personally seen in scrip[turen physical and spiritual how many times it is said it is in his timing there are always limitations sdome kind of excuse but this isn't what I saw, Jesus merely said ask and you will recieve how the faith of a mustard seed can move a mountain when it comes spiritual God and man we pray to him we ask for fish and bread and it is given when this happened was there any other conditions or did they simply ask and recieve? was the bread and fish with conditions or not?

what did he say? has it ever mattered how we concieve things or undersrtand things or is hos word the actual authority? if his word is the actual word of God than any interpretation any reason or excuse we give as to why things work the way they work seems like a copout but I won't deny life has been absoultely brutal since I started on this path I am not open because I want attention or need pity how would that change anything?

I am open because I have to believe that is is all not for nothing that somehow my pain and struggles shyowing my weakness would somehow be able to reach those that need it

pain is not only the best teacher but more than anything I have seen it be able to connect to and help people I wish I knew how to give up it would be so much easier but I am stubborn I never know how to really give up but yes perhaps pm would be a better idea I tend to be to honest and I suspect I am getting on peoples nerves1

hi blain I think I may have figured out something.

Well I would call it resting on the morals of the lord


Well I knocked seeked and waited,. The answer came back was those who wait on the lord will sore like eagles.

I remember my message everyday, and we'll It's now Got to the stage where I'm waiting every waking moment, it's almost like I'm surrounded by still waters, and I'm in a sea of tranquility, everything is just floating

Even when I'm surrounded by the enemy,

The lord told me the meaning of not casting your pearls to swine.

It basically means you only have to say what I want you to say.

I was then reminded how far I have come in waiting on the lord,

At times I climb so high i can see myself looking down on this world from a great height.

It's been happening more and more lately.
I literally see my self flying across the sky, then I could see my wife picking up the wood.

All of a sudden an eagle flapped it's wings

When I got back yesterday my wife said an eagle had come close to her and flapped it's wings in front of here.

We both described the same colour, white colour with golden spots in it's chest.

It can't be a coincidence that can it.

I was looking for guidance at the time to know if my wife was ok. Because sometime people don't share there feelings straight away.

With women I've found they generally don't share sensitive issue because they feel inadequate sharing with men, sometimes.

But no I think the lord was telling me to get that nonsense out of my head when it comes to my wife.