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Like seriouse i dont have a clue im a total screw up waste of space unwanted person what ever you wanna call me.
All i feel is im here for some perpouse, so im told its cause god loves me but im yet to see this.
All my life ive been trouble pritty much everyday out of my life my mum brought me up in church as all my other brothers and sisters they all turned out fine. Got kicked out of school, shopping centers, activitie centers you name it im barred. I totally started all this when i was 13 when i really turned for worse stopped church and everything, scived school and saw some church on someones tv and i wanted to go.
I went OH MY WORD its awsome i love everyone there and how loved they make you feel. up untill last august i got banned a total of 8 times on the 8th time they said nope sorry its perminent so i was gutted. I did so much to change to get back in and they finally aloud my january this year ive continued to change up untill last thew weeks im back drinking, and doing stupid thing hanging with wrong people church new how well i was doing and now obviously realise how bad im doing so to top off every bad thing going on in my life which is life im perminently banned except this time im never aloud back, im constantly in trouble with police and drinking loads. im so scared of life right now and when my parents find out bout church im dead.
i dunno what to do thought id have a rant on but heck no church i go to accepts me so im banned from loads.
Do i give up hope?
Do i forget bout god?
cause does he really love me?
do i find another church to get kicked out off#??
im so unaccepted anywhere in life home work church why we live to wake up go to work and sleep again life is so pointless.
and im not trying to put christians off its all genuine i just dont no where im going anymore and need someone to talk to.
All i feel is im here for some perpouse, so im told its cause god loves me but im yet to see this.
All my life ive been trouble pritty much everyday out of my life my mum brought me up in church as all my other brothers and sisters they all turned out fine. Got kicked out of school, shopping centers, activitie centers you name it im barred. I totally started all this when i was 13 when i really turned for worse stopped church and everything, scived school and saw some church on someones tv and i wanted to go.
I went OH MY WORD its awsome i love everyone there and how loved they make you feel. up untill last august i got banned a total of 8 times on the 8th time they said nope sorry its perminent so i was gutted. I did so much to change to get back in and they finally aloud my january this year ive continued to change up untill last thew weeks im back drinking, and doing stupid thing hanging with wrong people church new how well i was doing and now obviously realise how bad im doing so to top off every bad thing going on in my life which is life im perminently banned except this time im never aloud back, im constantly in trouble with police and drinking loads. im so scared of life right now and when my parents find out bout church im dead.
i dunno what to do thought id have a rant on but heck no church i go to accepts me so im banned from loads.
Do i give up hope?
Do i forget bout god?
cause does he really love me?
do i find another church to get kicked out off#??
im so unaccepted anywhere in life home work church why we live to wake up go to work and sleep again life is so pointless.
and im not trying to put christians off its all genuine i just dont no where im going anymore and need someone to talk to.