I don’t know what to do . I just don’t I am at a loss . About three years ago I became a believer of Jesus Christ he made himself known to me by taking my fears and anxiety that was litterally crippling me . The only thing I turned to was smoking weed and drinking . I drank a lot I am a alchoholic but I am sober now from both . Two years ago I met a man , who I thought was the answer to my prayers ... you see I am a strong believer that we are in the final book of the Bible the revelation . So I prayed to God that he would at least let me have a good husband and child before he came . At the time I was doing great , the love the Holy Spirit surrounds you with is nothing of this world . My father always told me you make sure a man has a job , a car and a place . Most importantly a man that treats you with respect . Well his name is David and we met when I was working at Walmart . So we hung out at a BBQ , and I cut straight to the chase, because I wanted to make sure he new I was a Godly woman. A new Christian , working one becoming born again and that I was celebate at the time . He said he believed in God and he said he was okay with my celibacy . Things moved fast guys I mean really fast , faster then my last two relationships . But he is different he was taking me out on dates , drives , fishing , cooked me meals, gave me flowers made me things . I thought this was a prayer answered . Then he wanted me to move in I said yes . Things happened that shouldn’t until we get married but a year later came our beautiful baby girl . His drinking has gotten worse , I found out that since day one of our relationship he has been using multiple emails committing adultery , being unloyal , sending pictures of himself . I am probably being punished in some way . :,(. I don’t understand , I don’t know what to do . I need guidance . I don’t know if I should marry him and deal with it whatever it might be . For the sake of our baby girl , to become born again and commit myself to Christ and just deal with the extreme heartache I am recieving from his deceiving . It is breaking me down . I am giving it to God I am praying for him . I am praying for us because I am so in love with him . But I am so confused . I don’t know if the devil is trying to steal kill and destroy this family. Or if the devil was the one who put us together . Idk if God wants me to remain loyal or if he wants me to walk away I just don’t know . I am at a loss , I can not sleep, I cry so much, i am so angry and the fighting .... it is so bad espescially when he is drinking . He promised to quit drinking and then he started back up . He promised to quit messaging stranger sexually and he broke that 4 times . If the man can’t keep his promises then what makes me think he will honor his vows. I have remained loyal to him and only him even though he is messing around on the phone . I am so heart broken .... I need to know what to do I wish I could see God right infront of me and him just tell me exactly what to do . :,,,,(