I am sad and tired. Nervousness tortures me each day in workplace and insomnia tortures me at night. I feel desperate; I weep and am not happy. If anyone reads this, please pray for me. If God doesn't help me, I can't see any hope of living.
"God does not make junk." You may feel miserable, thus, equating your life as being miserable. WRONG!
You are valuable to God and He cares for you. No one knows your situation like God. No one will fight for you like Him.
Still, God works in ways we do not always see. And for this reason, you must not let your unmet requests mean that God is not working in your life. He is, trust His word, the Bible. God is still at work in your life.
You do a great job of sharing your desperation and sharing your need for prayer. Thanks for sharing the need.
I knew a girl who could not sleep for weeks, so I am sorry if it is that bad or worse. Even if you wrestle with better sleep than that girl, it is hard for you; I am also sorry for that.
You shared that you feel depressed. Depression impacts different people in different ways, none of those ways is, um, fun.
Jesus may not have been depressed, but he knew stress. He was distressed as he accepted going to the cross. He did not desire to suffer, but he did accept the suffering-- in accordance with the Father's will. He was so overwhelmed one night, though, that he prayed while ALL of the disciples slept (when they were supposed to have stayed awake). He said, in my words, "I don't want this experience, but I accept it for Your Glory." Likewise, it is fine for you and everyone to pray so honest a prayer.
I pray this in accordance with the original poster's feeling of sorrow and the submission of Christ (to show solidarity, not to act as a priest or anything): "I hate this, God! I hate the feelings and the experiences I've experienced. I wish I did not have to be here, in this situation. I wish a lot of things were different. Right now, I feel like EVERYTHING should be different... BUT, I am trusting You, I will love you, follow you, and worship you. And I pray that you get the glory through my life, in the best moments and the worst. In Jesus' name, thanks for your grace, mercy and love. Show me how to live this moment, this day. amen."
You see? You do not need to worry about life, as Matthew 6:25 says. You do not need to worry about it.
Sure, the feelings feel real, are real, to you. And that must stink, especially when the feelings are "yuck feelings."
But God cares for you. This is a core conviction of mine, because Scripture and experience say this. It does not promise full recovery, your timing, or that you will not have to go to the doctor. It promises that He will be your guide. It promises that He loves you. And it promises that the best you can do is trust and obey him, in Christ Jesus.
praying for you,
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