I've been holding on to my faith that God is with me and everything will be worked out for good. I still believe that deep down, but after so many years of waiting for a prayer to be answered I'm just tired. We are dealing with some immigration problems and at this point I feel numb. It's so hard to move forward, make plans for a future when you don't know if your spouse will be around. I know this year will be when we finally know what is going to happen with his status. I pray for a miracle in that he wont have to leave. Honestly I am scared. I try not to be and put up a good front, but I feel like I'm breaking. I talk myself back to having faith in God and that a miracle will happen, but doubt is always there and I can't help but think of the "what ifs". I ask that you pray for my situation and that things work out in our favor.