Start by talking to God and praying. These all sound good. But I've tried and nothing. I've counseled many others in this same position, including one close friend who's doing wonderul now. But pray? Listen to God speak to me? What if I have and He hasn't?[/quote
Im not sure if this is why, but I had a time of struggle.It wasnt that I didnt know his love and care, it just seemed to be on hold.
I have known Jesus all my life and always talked to him , but several years ago it was what I called the desert.
I kept praying and asking what was it?
I came to realize that God Our Father wanted me to believe that I already had that relationship.
That all he put before me was him and his word and Love.
You see, I just couldnt believe he loved me so much. I had seen so much abandonement and lived so under the judgement of others , also I believed that I was only loved because of what others could take from me.
So I felt that unless I was valueble, I was not loved.
I began to see that it was not just the wrongs of others that had harmed me but my sin of thinking that if I am needed ,then I could be wanted and also had controll over that value with God.
Through Jesus I came to believe and know the great love of God Our Father in faith.
That his love is.
That it was not because of who I was that I am loved but ,that I was because of his love.
So God Our Father Showed me that I had to believe not only in this great love but that everything in my life is from him and his word to me.
Once I chose to believe this, the doors opened wide, and still continue to open and show me his great love.
I hope this helps, but if not do not lose heart. Some things can take time. But all is soon revieled.
You are in my prayers for this. God bless, pickles