Question about leaving God

[Sully]

Honestly, I shouldn't have made this post. Even though I did learn some things from it. This was all out of anger. I have a ton of faith in Jesus. I still talk to him everyday and I know he hears me. He proved his existence to me because I've been attacked by Satan and his demons numerous times and I always made them flee in the name of Jesus. The problem I have is that I'm starting to get impatient with this eyebrow problem because I've had it for over a year already.

I can't lie I did not start trying to obey God until summer of 2016. Even though I've had this problem since 2015. Anyway, my point is, I won't leave God because I know my life would get worse without him. I'm confident he'll heal me of this issue. I made this post out anger, not faith issues. Although, maybe in some ways it is a faith issue.

On the contrary, this thread has been the most honest, useful exchange I've seen so far. Likes for everybody.

 

[South_FLA]

spoiled children of this world.

Lmao get this Ariel... I actually am a spoiled kid! I've been spoiled my entire life. My parents always bought me whatever I wanted. I've never worked hard before. I'm one of the most spoiled people on this planet. I even get inward fuzzy feelings from God telling me that even HE spoils me and will continue to do so.


He has shown me these verses in the past:

Psalm 16:5-6
The Lord is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup: thou maintainest my lot.The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.

And some other one about having a crown on my head.



I'm not offended that you called me spoiled because I think its funny and quite honoring (sadly), just that little parlor trick comment got at me and I don't even know why. I'm looking back at our comments and chuckling pretty hard, because you remind me of my sister and I sounded like a little jackass. I do enjoy being a little mean to my Christian sisters when I get the opportunity because they give the funniest reactions! Like that sulking comment actually made me laugh. And if you knew me personally you would've read it in a way where you can tell I was being serious but definitely joking at the same time because that's what I do often.

I made a post awhile back asking if God chose our names, because my name is Andrej (pronounced Andre) and I'm named after a prince! So I was wondering if God called me that because he treats me that way. So yea I'm sorry if I hurt you, for what its worth.

 

[South_FLA]

Ariel its so funny, because I made it seem like I was going through an extremely tough time. Besides my eyebrow pains, my life is super easy. Hard working people would be jealous of my life if they saw it. (not trying to sound proud but honest) .. I complain and whine at God for the smallest challenges in life like an idiot because I'm so spoiled! Like this whole thread was just one giant whine-gag because I kind of wanted to show God how mad I was!

 

[FreeNChrist]

I have. But I'm not that kind of person where I enjoy talking about them. If they saw this post they would think I'm some kind of attention whore. Not saying talking about your problems online makes you one. But I'd like to avoid the jokes they'd give me lol.

How about your Pastor, have you talked to them about these things?

 

[oldethennew]

1TIM. 6:6.
But godliness with contentment is great gain.

real contentment can only be achieved by great Love
and Thankfulness for what our Heavenly Father
has done and is doing for us every day of our lives...

before 'conversion', contentment is an elusive creature -
after 'conversion' it must be diligently sought after/prayed for
in each stage of our growth in Christ...

 

[blue_ladybug]

Now you know that whining gets you nowhere..lol.. And don't you think Jesus ever got mad?He threatened to whip the money-changers in the temple.. And on the cross, he begged God to take that burden from Him. But God forsook Him, so don't you think maybe Jesus was mad about that? There is NO emotion that you feel, that Jesus hasn't also felt..

Ariel its so funny, because I made it seem like I was going through an extremely tough time. Besides my eyebrow pains, my life is super easy. Hard working people would be jealous of my life if they saw it. (not trying to sound proud but honest) .. I complain and whine at God for the smallest challenges in life like an idiot because I'm so spoiled! Like this whole thread was just one giant whine-gag because I kind of wanted to show God how mad I was!

 

[South_FLA]

If you are worried about your eyebrows, how would your faith stand up to somebody threatening to cut off your head? How cool is that? What if your children were going to be tortured unless you denounced your faith? God doesn't step in from letting our bodies get marred. This vehicle is just a loner. Death isn't a problem for God. When you sacrifice a pawn on the chess board do you care? The point of the game isn't to protect the pieces, it's to checkmate the other king. At the end of the game you reset. It's just hair, just a body, just an eye, nothing matters but the eternal soul, everything else is collateral damage. Death isn't the end of life, it's just the beginning. We are all like larva, caterpillars. Then after we "fall asleep" we will wake up to new bodies, with fantastic new abilities. The sooner this life ends the better. It would be like early retirement.

I agree with everything you say man. If someone had a gun and asked me "if you believe in God I'll kill you" I would definitely say "I do!" and I would be in the most happiest/terrified state in my life while saying it.

 

[South_FLA]

You know, South, it is when we are in the greatest pain and turmoil, that God is the closest to us. I know it may not seem that way for you now, but it's true. Just reach out for Him, He's standing right beside you. And all He wants to do is pull you close and hold you tight.

I know I know. I tend to ignore this fact when I get angry

 

[South_FLA]

South, have you gone to a doctor? Maybe there's some unknown health issue going on and that's why they haven't grown back.. As far as healing, I know some will disagree, but God does NOT heal EVERY ONE. I've had epilepsy since age 5, and guess what, it's 42 years later and I'm still not healed. But I DO know why--so that I can share my testimony with others in the hopes that it helps them.

Now let's look at what you DO have, and stop focusing on what you don't. You have your life, your health, family, friends, you have US. Most importantly, YOU HAVE GOD. And isn't He more important than eyebrows?

I've thought about going to a doctor but I don't have the money to spend and God knows that without a doubt. I really do get the feeling that God will put them back and yes of course God is more important than anything. God will put them back because he knows I'm gonna go out and get me a wife and I need eyebrows to look like an actual human/attractive.

 

[South_FLA]

Well, most here already know anyways.. Long story short, I slipped on ice and fell on my back in late 2014. It herniated and I got sciatica in my left leg. I was in bed constantly from November 2014 to February/March of 2015, with no one here to help me. I live alone, and Tequila (my cat) was very ill at the time. She would throw up literally at least 6 or 7 times a day, as well as poop on the floor. If you've ever had sciatica, you know how excruciating it is. The pain of it is an agony that I hope no one ever feels. I couldn't stand, couldn't walk, lost the use of my left leg for awhile, and having to clean up after Tequila was an added stress on my already over-loaded body. I went to the ER 3 times, and landed in the hospital for 3 days, being given pain meds around the clock so that they could do an MRI on me. I had to have 3 steroid shots in my back which was NOT fun. I had to go to PT 3 separate times. My left leg was so weak that I couldn't even kick off a blanket over my legs at night. My ONLY relief was laying in bed on my right side, laying completely still.

Nature would call, lol. I had 2 choices, endure the agony and turn to God for the strength to get up and go to the bathroom, or stay comfortable and lay there and pee myself and the bed. Needless to say, God's strength got me up and to the bathroom in time.. lol.. It hurt like hell, literally. But with God's help, I did it. And today, 3 years later, my leg is still very weak and I still have debilitating problems with my back, though it's no longer herniated.. My ordeal is no worse or better than yours or anyone else's here. But somewhere, someone DOES have a worse ordeal than ours that they are going through..

I've read this story before in your testimonies

 

[South_FLA]

Are you still doing Christian apologetics online, South_FLA?

Nu-uh. Sometimes an atheist will try to say something but I'll respond with a short nice response. And last time I ignored them and let other Christians handle it.

 

[South_FLA]

Probably every tee shirt you own is a cotton polyester mix.

No joke! Too many people mix the covenants. Jesus instituted a NEW covenant. As Christians, that is what we are under, not any of the older covenants, which were given to a specific people in a specific time for a specific reason that is all long past.

A brother in Christ told me that when you get a tattoo you let demons into you because something spiritual happens when ink mixes with your blood. Something like the tattoo artist's demons can transfer into you. I don't know if that's 100% true though. He sounded serious when he said it and wasn't joking, I know that for sure.

 

[South_FLA]

I for one am glad you made this thread. After all, you did learn some stuff from it, so it's all good. It's okay to be mad at God. He understands. And He knows your heart, don't worry.

thanks blue

 

[South_FLA]

You are young. I had a very similar problem at your age.
Everything is so new, and you have not been pushed to breaking point and beyond.

A lot of what is being talked about is situations in life and how we approach it. If one
hides away and does not engage a lot simply does not apply.

You need to get out there, accept the hurts that are in you and take risks with love
and faith. Expect to get battered and also to be blessed. Then the words will mean
something different.

Take a simple word like forgiveness. Take the person in your life you still feel bad about
really bad about. And then ask God to help you to forgive them from your heart. Start
to wonder why this is so hard and pray through it. You will start to learn a lot about yourself
and others. And this is always most of the story. It is easy to talk theory, but when it is tough
and we care, it suddenly changes.

When I was your age it was saying "I love you" to my mum who never used language like this
and hid her real emotions. Starting to be more empathetic and understanding rather than
dictatorial and believing I understood what was going on. Usually I got things very wrong.
Still have these issues, but am a lot better at setting a direction now.

Eye-opening! Very true.

 

[Magenta]

I made it seem like I was going through an extremely tough time.

You know, and I realize you may not believe me, but I knew all along that on some level you were having us on. I actually thought you were presenting the attitude of atheists to get a feel for how to respond to them when they say the same sorts of things. Someone said in one of their posts that nobody here knew you, but I recognized you right away, and I remember sharing a lot with you regarding apologetics toward the non believers, when you first joined. It is hard to believe it was only the beginning of this year. It seems so long ago already! Of course this is not to say I am very familiar with you, but I had some sense of who you are, and did find it nigh impossible to readily accept that you had so easily given up your faith. I am glad that part at least was true I have witnessed believers allowing atheists to shred their faith. It remains one of the saddest things I have seen in all my years talking to people on the basis of my own faith in the living Word of God.

Besides my eyebrow pains, my life is super easy. Hard working people would be jealous of my life if they saw it. (not trying to sound proud but honest) .. I complain and whine at God for the smallest challenges in life like an idiot because I'm so spoiled! Like this whole thread was just one giant whine-gag because I kind of wanted to show God how mad I was!

I have kind of not had noticeable eyebrows for forty years I am used to it

 

[South_FLA]

Take it from someone who has only a dot of patience. God is using this to teach you patience. I've had to learn patience even though I wanted it RIGHT NOW.. God says this too shall pass, and it will, eventually..

God has punished me with face problems since mid 2012. Before it used to be that I had these disgusting brown blotches around my mouth. I had to put makeup over them for like 3 years. That healed. Then late 2015 comes around and I get myself into this eyebrow quandary! I feel that the blotches were punishment for me calling people ugly for years and years and making them feel insecure about themselves. Not only that, in 2013 I became a glutton and gained like 45 pounds. I became an extra chubby kid. Thankfully God blessed me with a gym membership (didn't realize that it was a blessing at the time) and I lost all that weight in 2014

This eyebrow issue I think is punishment for talking behind my friends' backs all the time!! I was a huge s*** talker. So God had me spend a year isolated from them to show me that I shouldn't take them for granted. Because through the process it helped me realize I love them more than ever! And more so it was a way to show me that I need to fully depend on God and be satisfied with him being my only friend. To get closer to him! Which I still struggle with obviously.

 

[South_FLA]

What others think of you doesn't matter. Worry about what GOD thinks of you.

Yup. I always thank God for that. Because if he wasn't there, I would constantly depend on other people's opinion about me. I do that often and it eats me alive!

 

[South_FLA]

I have a question for you. Is there something you could do to make yourself feel better?

Playing video games is like therapy for me. Honestly one of the best ways to escape from the trash of life! Problem is I haven't had a game to play in a year because I've been low on $$$

 

[Blindedbylight]

You sound very sad and depressed. Even though life is sometimes horrible, that doesn't mean you can blame God, (though I admit that I've done that many times in the past), since he lets all things happen for our good. Note that I said GOOD. 1 Peter 1:7 says, " These (trials) have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." John 16:33 says "I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world." Now, I know that God doesn't magically fix your problems. Sometimes He's silent, and sometimes the devil's attacks are continual and it seems hopeless. But you've got to have hope that God will pull through for you. Being angry at Him won't change the fact that he loves you and that he feels pain just like you have. You asked, "Why did God die for me? I didn't ask to be born!" Well, think about Jesus. I'll bet he LOVED the thought of going to earth, becoming a servant, putting off His Godly nature and becoming a human to die a horrible, torturous death on the cross. But He still did it. Doesn't that merit some small bit of thankfulness on our part?

 

[South_FLA]

On the contrary, this thread has been the most honest, useful exchange I've seen so far. Likes for everybody.

Thank you Sully