God bless you- you have had some great advice. I also add my welcome. The more we try and be better the more we struggle, I believe evil has a big part in it, Satan does not want you in the light, and the CHOICE is ours moment by moment, at times our new life will be great and the next minute we struggle. God has gifted you with insight and courage, keep that in mind, you are young and have strength that you cannot imagine right now. Talents and gifts that make you unique and the only you that you can be. Keep understanding and learning yourself --your likes and dislikes,, and always trust God is always in you and with you. Count on it. There are so many wonderful churches that can support you with your journey, explore and choose one who believes in God our Creator,Jesus Christ as our Savior the only begotten Son of God, who became man to save us , and the Holy Spirit, all the rest of the religious stuff is just that, stuff. You can go to focusonthefamily.com and they can help you find support and a good church in your local area, and also has some great info and articles for new believers. There is a lot of BS out there trying to distract you, and unfortuneately most of the time it is even within our own families, and friends, (where we are the most vulnerable) but you can be strong enough to ignore the scoffers, and stay with the basic truths about God and you will be far better off. Many Blessings