Hello my name is Holly. I'm 43 years old from Indiana USA. Writing this is extremely hard for me because I'm really not used to giving descriptions of myself. I'll try nonetheless.
As a child I was extremely shy. Growing up it developed into social anxiety disorder. I've also battled depression. My family has a history of mental illness. That being said, it was hard in life to be the best Holly I could be. That's all I'll say about that.
My family is affiliated with United Methodist Church here in Indiana and Michigan. We have two pastors within my aunt's family. I was taken to church as a child by my mother. I was baptized in a First Free Methodist Church very young.
As a teenager, I started to fall away from God because I felt my life wasn't what I wanted it to be and I blamed God for not answering my prayers to make it better. Over the years I fell further and further away until I didn't even believe in any God at all. During that time my mother and I thought our religious family members shunned us because my mother was divorced, of our depression, and the fact that I was biracial. Those thoughts made me think if my family was like this then most Christians would be like this.
Recently my mother passed away and I started to reconcile my relationship with my aunt who was the wife of Pastor James Butler. I never really had the best relationship with my aunt until now. Conversations with her made me see that I wasn't really turned away from my faith that I was just confused because of how awful my life was. I didn't realize before that God had protected me from so many things. No matter how bad I thought my life was up until this moment, God didn't let me fall too far. God has kept me and I'm grateful everyday. I also realized that the impression I had about my family was misgiven.
Now, I'm slowly coming out of my shell. I've become more self sufficient. I've renewed my faith in christ and made God my guide and comforter. With God I'm never alone no matter how lonely I may feel.
I hope that sums up me briefly. I'm so very scared no one will read this or they will read it and turn away. I would like to fellowship on this site with other Christians.
Thank you for reading......
As a child I was extremely shy. Growing up it developed into social anxiety disorder. I've also battled depression. My family has a history of mental illness. That being said, it was hard in life to be the best Holly I could be. That's all I'll say about that.
My family is affiliated with United Methodist Church here in Indiana and Michigan. We have two pastors within my aunt's family. I was taken to church as a child by my mother. I was baptized in a First Free Methodist Church very young.
As a teenager, I started to fall away from God because I felt my life wasn't what I wanted it to be and I blamed God for not answering my prayers to make it better. Over the years I fell further and further away until I didn't even believe in any God at all. During that time my mother and I thought our religious family members shunned us because my mother was divorced, of our depression, and the fact that I was biracial. Those thoughts made me think if my family was like this then most Christians would be like this.
Recently my mother passed away and I started to reconcile my relationship with my aunt who was the wife of Pastor James Butler. I never really had the best relationship with my aunt until now. Conversations with her made me see that I wasn't really turned away from my faith that I was just confused because of how awful my life was. I didn't realize before that God had protected me from so many things. No matter how bad I thought my life was up until this moment, God didn't let me fall too far. God has kept me and I'm grateful everyday. I also realized that the impression I had about my family was misgiven.
Now, I'm slowly coming out of my shell. I've become more self sufficient. I've renewed my faith in christ and made God my guide and comforter. With God I'm never alone no matter how lonely I may feel.
I hope that sums up me briefly. I'm so very scared no one will read this or they will read it and turn away. I would like to fellowship on this site with other Christians.
Thank you for reading......
