I am going through a rough time these days. Recently i have been into the hospital, because we found out that i have diabetes. I lost 9kg (20 pounds). Extremly much for a boy who is like 1.81 meter. Diabetes means much to you life. Many thoughts of what you planned to do fall apart. You have to inject 4 times a day a dosis of insuline. You have to meassure sometimes. Than you have hypos and hypers, which are dangerous for you health and very hard.
The questions why i have this and how i should life on are constant on my mind. Also how i should go on with my study.
There is also this mess with food, i have to choose the right amounts of food. I also have celiac disease. So no grains too. So finding the right formula is very hard.
Then i also have the questions wheter God want me to be healed or not.
Right now when i am writing i am having another hypo.
Then i also have this fake feelings of a hypo. I feel a hypo often when i am tensed. Well i am tensed extremely sometimes and it costs me much energy. I come close to depressions sometimes. I am tired and weakened.
The tiredness brings me to a level i feel again more tense and then i am becoming more tired and more depressed.
Also i am experiencing some communication problems with my housemembers at my studylocation. So it brings up some stress. So i am rather not there while i have to pick up life.
Also i should be moving more, but it is hard for me because i feel like i fall everytime and i am tired.
I also need someone to understand me in real life and who can help me.
I hope some people are willing to pray for me. I am really lost and in desperate need of Gods help here.
The questions why i have this and how i should life on are constant on my mind. Also how i should go on with my study.
There is also this mess with food, i have to choose the right amounts of food. I also have celiac disease. So no grains too. So finding the right formula is very hard.
Then i also have the questions wheter God want me to be healed or not.
Right now when i am writing i am having another hypo.
Then i also have this fake feelings of a hypo. I feel a hypo often when i am tensed. Well i am tensed extremely sometimes and it costs me much energy. I come close to depressions sometimes. I am tired and weakened.
The tiredness brings me to a level i feel again more tense and then i am becoming more tired and more depressed.
Also i am experiencing some communication problems with my housemembers at my studylocation. So it brings up some stress. So i am rather not there while i have to pick up life.
Also i should be moving more, but it is hard for me because i feel like i fall everytime and i am tired.
I also need someone to understand me in real life and who can help me.
I hope some people are willing to pray for me. I am really lost and in desperate need of Gods help here.