This is interesting, i met a person once who had a remarkable personality, he wasnt satisfied with "Theory", Faith is a 2 Edge Sharp Sword. But sometimes even a Christian might give advice and present it in a manner of "Theory", for example "In Theory satan is whispering in your ear, thats why you have these thoughts", but some Christians ask themselfs "IS IT TRUE!" while other treat it light handed and do nothing or little about it. While some people who are satisfied with Faith want more, they are Tired of this "In Theory" asumptions if presented that way and want The Truth.
They asume in themselfs that they are able to handle "what awaits them" and are not afraid to go that extra mile.
From you i get this same Inspiration, it seems that you have Faith, but you want to Practice it, meaning you want to see Spiritual Things, you want to SEE Jesus Christ, you want to Hold a Sword and see if it Really Cuts that Demon that is whispering in your ear. You want to know Mysteris and be able to the things the Old Apostles did, Heal the Sick, Cast out Demons, Fight a Spiritual Warfare, Love everyone, Know wich Direction you will definitly lead someone to Jesus Christ. Fight with Angles? Witness wonderfull Dreams and Visions of Jesus Christ?, even maybe for a short time be in the Presence of God himself?, i tell you its a very fearfull thing.
Again this is what i believe you want and Jesus Christ telling you Matthew 20:22
"You don't know what you are asking," Jesus said to them. "Can you drink the cup I am going to drink?" "We can," they answered.
The Book that "i Believe you put aside because you wanted to Practice all these things, but didnt know were and how or wenn, is full off Advice, it teaches you, wich you will have to Believe through Faith, how to Deal with Situations you are asking for, it tells you the troubles, pain and suffering one migh or will go through wenn one decides to take that path. It seems that you are not very Fearfull, and have a Great Desire to Practice Spirituality and come closer to the Most Holy Place. But if you continue to neglect the Bible, the teachings, guidence, you will find your self -if Jesus Christ would allow it- in a place that is terrfying but your light will shine greatly, you will be awake, and see and notice things, but what will you do then? and how would you do it?.
Also, Practice using the 2 edge sword killing your own sins first, fighting of your own demons first. Making Decisions using the power that Jesus Christ has given you Freely Already to set yourself apart from a worldy life first. Then wenn Jesus Christ sees that you are able to make right decisions, humble yourself and repent, also truely forgive the Sins of others and learn how to Fight the Battle. then He will open your Eyes, then you will be ready and fully equip of that wich awaits you here, Holy Spirit?, Jesus Christ? Light? Authority? Truth? Straight Path? Light onto my Feet? Fight/War?...
Work out your own salvation, meaning not to work for your salvation but what is already given you work with it, let it work for you. Salvation has been given, now let what has been given you work for you. Be it Faith, Understanding, Authority or others.....
I hope my asumption towards you is in some form is correct. Hm....