Currently on my heart and the cause of many heartaches in my life is my chosen vocation in life. I went through college and completed all of my requirements for the job that I love. When I graduated my hopes where high that this was the path I was to follow. From the time that I was a child this has been my hearts desire. However, it has been five years since graduation and no doors have opened to getting a full time job. For these past five years I have worked as a Substitute. It is the closest I can come to doing the job that I love so much. I know that this profession is God's will because I have seen his work in every aspect of my job.
I went into this summer with high expectations. I had this deep gut feeling that this was my year. My dream was finally going to come to life. My summer is quickly coming to and end. And a while back I had lost all hope and said that I was tired of dreaming only to have my dreams crushed. That the pain wasn't worth it any more. Not so long after saying that God has restored my hope for the future.
There has been a certain position that was placed on my heart. Unfortunately there were no openings for that position. I continued to have faith and believe that God has everything under control. Well just this week that position has become available. Before learning about the availability of the position I had read in God's word some powerful words that had my heart soaring. I felt that this was God's answer to my long awaited prayers. I haven't heard a thing yet about the job. I have been patiently waiting for a call, but with each day my hope and faith are fading away. I am even beginning to question God's calling on my life. I feel as though I am on a roller coaster and that I am about to crash into the ground. Please pray for me that my hope does not fade away and that I can cope with whatever the outcome may bring. Thanks
