I'm just so fed up of being so stupid and foolish. So self centred and selfish. All I do is think about myself. I pray often the sinners prayer and ask for power not to sin again. I always find myself thinking never again, never again and then end up thinking, why have I done this again!? I just can't seem to stop or help myself. I'm sick and tired of doing these abhorrent things and letting myself and people down time and time again. All because I don't put God first! It's like my mind just wont learn. Don't want to be like this again. Then put God first. That's all it is and all I need to do you'd think it was the easiest thing ever and it should be! Please I pray, will someone pray for me so something gets through to God other than my own pathetic ramblings just so He knows how I'm feeling and that I want to change, once and for all!
All sin can be forgiven, and do not beat yourself up too bad about it for you have to forgive yourself, although try to do right, but what it is, is what it is, no use in getting upset about it, for some have worked themselves up in to a frenzy over it, which made it worse, and not mentally good.
God knows if we are sincere or not, but the truth is there is no excuse, so the best thing we can do is not give an excuse.
If you like to enjoy sin, you like to enjoy sin, so why get upset if you are going to keep doing it, for it will not be an excuse for the sin if you are highly upset about it, but hold unto it knowing you will do it again, and being upset will make no difference with God to show you are sorry if you hold unto the sin, and keep doing it, for then how are you really upset and sorry if you keep doing it.
Which a lot of people have been there, and some sins we might want to hang unto longer and enjoy them before we get rid of them.
Which I do not say this in a manner to condemn you but to say do not be so hard on yourself for it does no good, and can cause stress, even though it is something as important as abstaining from sin, but it does no good if you do give up the sin.
But at least you care a lot that you do not want sin.
It appears that some people want to enjoy sin, and they want to be upset a lot about for they think that God will be tolerable with them because of their being upset all the while they keep sinning, and keep using that strategy.
But they probably do not realize the game they are playing for they would not ever want to think in their mind that they are playing this game concerning the ways of God.
So that gets dismissed in their mind all the while they play the game.
Oh God you know I am trying but there I go again, oh I did it again God and I am upset like the dickens about it, and round and round it goes as they enjoy sin and think their being upset satisfies God concerning their sin.
Because a lot of people want to enjoy sin but then try to find a loophole that allows them to do that but be off the hook, but God seen all the tricks, and games, and is wise to them all knowing the heart, and the thoughts of people.
At least you appear upset whether genuine or not, while some people sin and say they cannot abstain from sin so they have little guilt, and do not get upset or maybe a wee tiny bit, which that is even scarier when they sin and have that attitude.
Gal 5:16 This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.
Gal 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
Gal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Gal 5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.
Gal 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.
1Co 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
A Spirit led life can abstain from sin for they hate sin, and do not want sin, and allow the Spirit to lead them, and have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts, and show the ways of the Spirit and not the flesh, and God will not allow them to be tempted as hard as the world, and will give them an escape from the temptation.
2Ti 3:4 lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
2Ti 3:5 Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.
2Ti 3:6 For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts,
2Ti 3:7 Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.
Some people will not allow the Spirit to lead them because they want to enjoy sin and believe they are right with God which is the ever learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth about it.
But there is hope for people that do sin, and want to enjoy it, but they believe sin affects their relationship with God and they cannot sin and be right with God.