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Shadowwolg
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Temptation has many names for Many people...mine is sexual addiction...and this week I have fallen into the hole of Mb and beginning back I. Watching porn......it had been a long time since I but for some reason..I have fallen and it has my name.....calling g me...telling me how pleasurable it all will be......yes I have given in.....and yes temptation keeps calling my name.....I am here To publicly , ha, without saying who I am, ...saying God....if you have to break me, do whatever it takes.....but God you will have to hold me together lest I fall an end my life...bc I am tired of having g such a lustful desire to f#@$ myself and knowing that this is not in accordance to your will....I have been in counseling for over 2 1/2 yrs trying to fight my addiction and my depression....I have had moments, sometimes months of obedience yet for some reason I fall back into this sin......by choice....it is no one's else's fault.....yet I know God loves me, he is with me and He wants me to lean on Him....I am trying...what plays through my mind right now, is how, how could He love me, how could He see past my sin.... why must I keep choosing freshly desires over Him....How can he love me...how can He......He just does.....