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Skyelover
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HI, My name is Skye. I am Taiwanese, and now live in California, US. I grew up in a Christian family. I am fifth generation chrsitian. I went to sunday school every sunday with my parents when I was a child. For some reasons, I used to be super shy, and really sensitive. Growing up in a well known family, people compare me all the times. I am very quite when I was a child.My parents are the best couple in the world. They are the best husband and wife and also dad and mom. They built a christian family, and taught us things from bible. I think I just tried to please them by avoid them to worried about me.
When I was a child, Boys at school always picked on me and made me cry everyday. A lot of time, my teachers had to find me crying in the girl bathroom. Those boys locked me in the girl bathroom all the time. I never fight back. I never complained to my parents either. I kept all the bad feeling to myself. I tried to face everything without bothering my parents. Honestly, I do not have good experience with males up to this point. When I was 15 or 16, I liked a boy in my church a lot. He was a worship leader as well. He was very active in church. I wrote him a letter just to tell him my feeling.But, he passed that letter to everyone and made it such a big thing. He did not need to put me down and embarrased me like that, but he did. This impact me so much. I cried out by myself and I avoid males from that point.
By the way, there was always a stronger and tougher female will protect me when I went through all those bad feeling. I guess that is also the main reason I escaped my feeling to females. I used to thought that I will be safer to be with females. Once I step in to Lesbian relationship, I was in the circle of lesbian life for 10 years. I could not pull myself out of it. I could not take anything people say. I could not stand to hear all those hateful words out from people who tell me they are "Christian" Anyway, I was in 3 relationships within 10 years. I had all the feeling like any other couples.
Praise the lord to let me experience the change in my life. about 2 years ago, I met my last partner. She has bipolor, ADHD, and anxiety disorder. To be with such a person, I lived in hell. I experienced violence, and listen to all the hurtful words from her. I do not hate her. We are still friends. Because her, I face the fears and hopeless again.
Praise the Lord, My parents never gave up on me. They had been praying for me since they found out I was a Lesbian.
I left church for a long time. But, I found my way back. One year ago, I broke up with my last partner. This is the first time, I broke up with someone. I never broke up with anyone by myself. I was in 4 relationships, and every relationship hurt me everytime. I put my heart in relationship, tried my best managing a long term relationship. I was honest, loyal, caring, loving, and have a very good temper and a lot of patience.Breaking up with my last partner, it was very difficult. She got depressed so easily, angry so easily, and she is physically stronger than me. It is not just saying byebye and end a relationship. It took me 3 months to break up with her. But, I did it.
After I broke up with her, I went to a church called Capital River Of Life Christian Church. Ling Leung worldwide Evangelistic Mission. My life is changed now. I went to a speical retreat, and the God appeared to me. He washed away my sin. He knew everything about me, and still love me. He said he wants me to help other people. He said he promises me my marriage and my family to have a fullfilling life together. He loves me deeply, and wants me to share the love with other people. He said he will use those who is wick. He said he put the heart of understanding other lesbians and gays in me and He wants me to help and lead others. Especially those people who walked away from Jesus. God loves everyone, and died to save everyone.
Now, I understand myself and love myself more. Because in God, I am wonderful. He is my creator, and love the way I am. My personalities changes, and my thinking changes as well. I feel I am a totally new person. I know God plans my steps. He also promises the marriage. I know I am waiting for the right person he created and chosen for me. I will be his helper, and wife. Together, we will start a christian family. A very happy and loving home. So, that's why I am here!
When I was a child, Boys at school always picked on me and made me cry everyday. A lot of time, my teachers had to find me crying in the girl bathroom. Those boys locked me in the girl bathroom all the time. I never fight back. I never complained to my parents either. I kept all the bad feeling to myself. I tried to face everything without bothering my parents. Honestly, I do not have good experience with males up to this point. When I was 15 or 16, I liked a boy in my church a lot. He was a worship leader as well. He was very active in church. I wrote him a letter just to tell him my feeling.But, he passed that letter to everyone and made it such a big thing. He did not need to put me down and embarrased me like that, but he did. This impact me so much. I cried out by myself and I avoid males from that point.
By the way, there was always a stronger and tougher female will protect me when I went through all those bad feeling. I guess that is also the main reason I escaped my feeling to females. I used to thought that I will be safer to be with females. Once I step in to Lesbian relationship, I was in the circle of lesbian life for 10 years. I could not pull myself out of it. I could not take anything people say. I could not stand to hear all those hateful words out from people who tell me they are "Christian" Anyway, I was in 3 relationships within 10 years. I had all the feeling like any other couples.
Praise the lord to let me experience the change in my life. about 2 years ago, I met my last partner. She has bipolor, ADHD, and anxiety disorder. To be with such a person, I lived in hell. I experienced violence, and listen to all the hurtful words from her. I do not hate her. We are still friends. Because her, I face the fears and hopeless again.
Praise the Lord, My parents never gave up on me. They had been praying for me since they found out I was a Lesbian.
I left church for a long time. But, I found my way back. One year ago, I broke up with my last partner. This is the first time, I broke up with someone. I never broke up with anyone by myself. I was in 4 relationships, and every relationship hurt me everytime. I put my heart in relationship, tried my best managing a long term relationship. I was honest, loyal, caring, loving, and have a very good temper and a lot of patience.Breaking up with my last partner, it was very difficult. She got depressed so easily, angry so easily, and she is physically stronger than me. It is not just saying byebye and end a relationship. It took me 3 months to break up with her. But, I did it.
After I broke up with her, I went to a church called Capital River Of Life Christian Church. Ling Leung worldwide Evangelistic Mission. My life is changed now. I went to a speical retreat, and the God appeared to me. He washed away my sin. He knew everything about me, and still love me. He said he wants me to help other people. He said he promises me my marriage and my family to have a fullfilling life together. He loves me deeply, and wants me to share the love with other people. He said he will use those who is wick. He said he put the heart of understanding other lesbians and gays in me and He wants me to help and lead others. Especially those people who walked away from Jesus. God loves everyone, and died to save everyone.
Now, I understand myself and love myself more. Because in God, I am wonderful. He is my creator, and love the way I am. My personalities changes, and my thinking changes as well. I feel I am a totally new person. I know God plans my steps. He also promises the marriage. I know I am waiting for the right person he created and chosen for me. I will be his helper, and wife. Together, we will start a christian family. A very happy and loving home. So, that's why I am here!