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Shadowwolg
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I forgot to post yesterday s poo I will add it to today's...however I would have to say...both posts are about the same.....yesterday...I basically did whatever I wanted....I did go in an clean for about 5 hours but I got up when I wanted to.....I went to bed when I wanted to .......today really is no different....I have 5 hours of volunteer work ...to do tonight but the rest of the day I did pretty much nothing...listened to some music.....drew some....but did nothing really...but then again....I would trade this in for some noise...expectations....companionship...but that is not where I am.....was reading g James again....have noticed that chapters 2-5 don't bother me...it's chapter one..the doubter.....it hit me..that's me...I doubt that God's plan as me being single is what's best for me right now......my struggles, my sin, my addiction, is built around that lack of trust, lack of belief...that being single is the best for me...for now.....how do I overcome the doubt, lack of trust......keep going to God....using His word to remind me who I am....keep taking time to write, draw, pray, read.........well at least that is my plan. ........now to stick to it........