See my post #24 in this thread where I listed the following: John 2:4 "And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to do with me? My hour has not yet come.”"
Yes, it is very hard to wait on God with a fire burning inside you. I feel we have extraordinary times just in front of us. The Elijah movement has already begun and there are people of faith that God will use. Being among family is very hard, when you have a special calling. I was idle for 21 years then I started writing my two books in desperation to share what God has taught me.
I finished the first one in 2013, and added the modern proverbs God gave me in the mission field. I finished the big one in 2014 and had them both copyrighted. I tried to get them published but could afford the "packages" publishers offered. I was believing God for new knee joints as mine were completely shot. They made me check in to a nursing home in Nov. 2015 to get my knees done as they would not do it while I lived alone. By Nov. 2016, I had new knee joints. I heard of the Christian Faith Publishers on a TV ad. A new publishing house in Pennsylvania. I got out of the nursing home and submitted both books. They immediately accepted both of them but I had to have them published one at a time on my fixed income. Both are published and paid off, praise God.
I don't know what God has next for me, but He keeps reminding me of Moses being in his eighties before using him. I still have about seven years before my eighties. I'll pray for you Ricky if you'll pray for me. One thing I know is I could never stop believing because of the road the Lord has brought me down. I have seen His works too much to ever be an unbeliever. I have even received divine healing, and when God uses doctors I heal remarkably fast for my age.