From your other posts, I certainly can understand why you feel this way. Since you are a young woman, I encourage you to find an older woman who is rich in the faith to teach you how to live a godly life and to prepare you for loving a husband and having children if you so desire.
Teach the older men to be temperate, worthy of respect, self-controlled, and sound in faith, in love and in endurance. Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can urge the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God. Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled (Titus 2:2-6).