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So I have a degree in Bachelors in Speech Pathology. I have known since I was a child that this was the path that I wanted to be in. I had thought that was what the Lord had wanted for me too. However, in order to work in the field you need a Masters degree. So I applied to grad school, but I didn't get accepted. It costs a ton to apply, and a lot of work so I was def upset and heart broken. I tried again the following year, and yet again no luck.
I have prayed about it, and have found alternate work, but it is not what I want to do. Plus I have to work twice as hard because now that I am out of school I have a ton of bills and more responsibilities. I just do not know what God wants for me. I am confused and hurt. I feel like God gave me a heart for something and the ability to do it, but I am unable to. I am in limbo unsure of what to do next. I feel like at first I was so into prayer and really asking God to show me what he wanted for me. However, this has been a really tough year, and I feel like I am becoming more and more distant from God. Sometimes I even feel angry at him for all of this. Even as I think that I feel bad that I feel that way.
It is just becoming harder and harder to keep reassuring myself of Gods will. I was just curious if others felt this too...or if anyone had thoughts or advice. I know the Lord has a plan for me, and I am trying to remind myself that HE has a plan for me and has my best interests at heart, but I am just wondering when He will lead me to the next step of my life and this limbo will be no more.
I have prayed about it, and have found alternate work, but it is not what I want to do. Plus I have to work twice as hard because now that I am out of school I have a ton of bills and more responsibilities. I just do not know what God wants for me. I am confused and hurt. I feel like God gave me a heart for something and the ability to do it, but I am unable to. I am in limbo unsure of what to do next. I feel like at first I was so into prayer and really asking God to show me what he wanted for me. However, this has been a really tough year, and I feel like I am becoming more and more distant from God. Sometimes I even feel angry at him for all of this. Even as I think that I feel bad that I feel that way.
It is just becoming harder and harder to keep reassuring myself of Gods will. I was just curious if others felt this too...or if anyone had thoughts or advice. I know the Lord has a plan for me, and I am trying to remind myself that HE has a plan for me and has my best interests at heart, but I am just wondering when He will lead me to the next step of my life and this limbo will be no more.