i want to establish a strong relationship and to have the 100% faith in Him, but i just don't know how.
Brother, first i just want to encourage you to continue in faith, what it seems to me like is happening in your heart is a godly sorrow, its causing you to have a deep desire to know Him more. thats a great thing because its producing the desire it is, its part of the gospel.
you are talking there about wanting a real and better relationship with God the Father, your answer to that Is Jesus Christ the only begotten. you need first to realize He suffered and died not because we are worthy for such a sacrifice, But simply because He Loves you that much, that He gave His only begotten Son for you to believe in with all of your heart, and bring you into eternal Life. Jesus died a terrible death, for the purpose of bringing you to God, and He was raised to Life, to make you worthy because you believe that Jesus is the Christ He sent, and the Only begotten Son of the Only God Just to do that for us, to give us a relationship with God the Father.
already you have turned to prayer in this matter and that is wonderful and very wise of you. there is one thing that a person needs to know God, and that is to know the words spoken By Jesus in the four Gospels. its why Jesus came to earth, To bear witness to the truth of God, to show us how God cares for us, to show us how to live, How to think, to tell us the truth that God Loves us, and His desire isnt to be high in Heaven on a throne, but to live in your heart with you daily, through the promised holy spirit.
Jesus told us how to receive the holy spirit, he told us how to Love one another as God wills, He told us the things we need to work on, and the things were doing right also. He told us of the grace of God given to all mankind, and the word of God sent to the ends of the earth through those who would believe His words. I would encourage you to begin daily study with the book of John in the Bible. This book is a speacial one to me and im sure many others.
Im not sure if you do already spend daily time in His word, if so, i would encourage you to take in His words, let them guide your thinking and express your desire to Know Him that way. believe what you are learning because it is the power of God as we begin seeing the truth of Jesus Christ. He is Our savior because were lost to Knowing God without Him.
No one apart from Jesus Knows God, so in order for us to begin Knowing Him better , we have to accept what Jesus is saying because its His purpose in this world to show us who God is and what He thinks and wants, show us his power and truth, His desire to heal our sins and forgive them. to remove the things weve fallen into in the world, things like wrong thinking about God, things Like wrong teachings about God that have been in the world so long.
God bless you, and i will be praying for God to make clear to you and for you to begin experiencing the truth and the joy and freedom and most of all, that you begin a relationship with Gods only begotten Son. the best way to start is what your doing and also commit to His word, even if its 20 minutes a day, and always pray before and think about the words you are taking in, ponder them, by doing this, they begin to cleanse and reshape your mind, because you have the true desire to know Him, Jesus is the way !!
God bless and Keep you ill be praying daily. say hello anytime God Loves you brother, believe it it is very true, as is His gospel.