God is not a guy, He is spirit . He is not flesh and blood. You are still a sweet saved guy.
Thank you for that truth, you are so right, there is an amazing book That I read about that, trying to remember the name?
Called "THE SHACK"
About a man that lost his Daughter to a pervert, and she was found dead in a Shack. One day he got a letter in the mail, that said meet him at "THE SHACK". no post stamp on the letter and mail had not even run yet that day.
Anyway, the book takes off after that and it was helpful to me in getting over my agony of those that have died befoere me, that I was close to/
Check it out, you might like and you might not. Yet in this book it portrayed God as a Woman cooking and serving, Amazing
No male, no female, no Jew, no Gentile, we are all one in and from the sight of God Thanks to Christ, the way, the truth and the new Life found in Christ and only through Christ's finished at the cross for all that believe
Hope you enjoy/