Truly precious to hear that sister.
You praise God in the circumstance you found yourself in.
You have obviously come to understand
Romans 8:28-29
28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. 29 For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.
As children of God, we do not always know what to pray for or how best to pray (v. 26), but we can know the purpose of God which the Holy Spirit desires to accomplish. work together for good: The primary reference of all things is the “sufferings of this present time” (v. 18). All circumstances will work together in cooperation for the believer’s good—that is, the believer will be conformed to Jesus Christ now and reign with Him later. (NKJV study notes)
Alas people tend to focus on v28 and neglect v29.
Is is often said "God makes all things good" based on v28.
God did not promise that whilst we are here on earth.
But whilst here on earth that God works good in all things for those who love him in order to conform us to the image of Jesus.
There is one thing God had promised for those in him
Revelation 21:3-4
3 And I heard a loud voice from heaven saying, “Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and He will dwell with them, and they shall be His people. God Himself will be with them and be their God. 4 And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.”
Thank you Jesus for your promise in Revelation.
I ask for all of us here that whilst we suffer here on earth we will trust in you, that we know your purpose and that you will use us to show Jesus in our lives.
We know that one day our lives will be perfect and we will be with you forever.
Thank you for that promise.
Luv ya BLB, thanks for your inspiration.
Your brother in Jesus.