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Yes, I do love him and today I cried so hard just thinking about losing him. I love him very much. I read this again,
1 Corinthians 7:9 But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.
Seems weird that God would say to get married if you have no self control. Let's face it, my self-control is running on fumes here. I can't put all the blame on my boyfriend. Yeah, he initiates things, but I do find it incredibly difficult not give in due to my own desires for him.
1 Corinthians 7:9 But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.
Seems weird that God would say to get married if you have no self control. Let's face it, my self-control is running on fumes here. I can't put all the blame on my boyfriend. Yeah, he initiates things, but I do find it incredibly difficult not give in due to my own desires for him.
You love him, you feel close to him, you crave intimacy with him. Don't beat yourself up over your feelings. Having those feelings doesn't mean that your relationship with Christ is not intact. God told Eve that her desire would be for her husband. This is the man you want to be your husband.
Now that he knows how deeply this has hurt you, what he does with that information will be very telling. If he is willing to do all he can to keep this from happening again and lovingly encourages you, he's a keeper. If he tries to take advantage of your feelings, walk away.
You clearly hold purity and your relationship with Christ in extremely high regard. You are clearly repentant. You and your man clearly love and respect one another, and communication is important to both of you. How he feels about you shows in his response.
God has a precious way of bringing good from our failings and disappointments. It appears that the light your dedication to purity for Christ has shown your man some things about his own relationship with Christ. I would again encourage the two of you to find a church together. It will help in every way.
Hang on, Sister The first steps are the toughest and you are taking them boldly.