I may have misunderstood your saying, "I've been dealing with death since August;
beset all around me." What I took to mean, there
has been recent death close to you..it strikes me after reading thru the posts, you may have meant the thought of death has troubled you? Not meaning to pry, unless of course you wish to elaborate, my point is simply words, and their meaning, how we interpret/convey, and the ever fluid language (archaic/modern). "Faith", for instance..it seems to have many definitions when relating to "salvation". The disciples of Yahshua asked for
more faith, to which He indicated the smallest measure would bear fruit when acted upon. (..say to the mountain..)
Ecclesiastes 9:5,6,10. “For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten. Also their love, and their hatred, and their envy, is now perished; neither have they any more a portion for ever in any thing that is done under the sun. Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest.”
When the body dies, it is asleep/conscious of nothing until Messiah comes.
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[SUP]24 [/SUP]Verily, verily I say unto you, unless a grain of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone; but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.
[SUP]25 [/SUP]He that loveth his life shall lose it, and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.
[SUP]26 [/SUP]If any man serve Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there shall also My servant be. If any man serve Me, him will My Father honor.
[SUP]27 [/SUP]“Now is My soul troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save Me from this hour’? But for this cause came I unto this hour.
[SUP]28 [/SUP]Father, glorify Thy name.” Then there came a voice from Heaven, saying, “I Have Both Glorified It, And Will Glorify It Again.”
[SUP]29 [/SUP]The people therefore who stood by and heard it said that it thundered. Others said, “An angel spoke to him.”
How is it, some heard only thunder, others heard a voice?
Also, that Messiah said His soul was troubled...even He, in His flesh body was subject to what is common to man, so even when we are troubled we can take heart and identify with our Messiah.
Born again = begotten again? I don't think so. My understanding is the translations I've read all my life, puts one for the other..we are begotten again into a lively hope (Paul says).... born again is at the end, when we receive incorruptible bodies.
I have entertained the thought..is he still alive, it is possible, however it is not for me to know yet. In the next verse it seems to give reason to question if that was the case though,
[SUP]22 [/SUP]Jesus said unto him, “If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee? Follow thou Me.”
[SUP]23 [/SUP]Then this saying went abroad among the brethren, that that disciple should not die.
Yet Jesus had not said unto him, “He shall not die,” but, “If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee?”
Death, the way I see it, is if our Creator has destroyed us altogether, and when the breath goes out of the body is merely sleep. We may be bothered at times concerning the unknown, but He has said we have nothing to fear if we abide in Him. I don't believe in eternal torment for the unbelievers, rather they cease to exist. Eternity would not be a good place, were the disobedient allowed to live forever. Even so, at Sodom and Gomorrah it's been proven that the brimstone/sulphur combined with the tar mortar of the buildings would have rendered a quick a death of suffocation, rather than excruciating pain and torment. See, even in judgement (I believe) our Father is most merciful and kind. We must return to dust before our change, unless of course we are still alive when He comes. (again opinion)
I hope I've not rambled too much.