No need to apologize, If I need to be brought down then down it is.
Eventually, all will answer for their deeds. Even your deeds today and yesterday, all the unrepentant deeds and rebellion in your heart to the will of God will be accounted for.
Your choice to take the Broad path, the easy route of "Got sin, but I got grace!" rather than the narrow path of following in Yahshuas footsteps of obedience and holiness will cone to your ears in the voice of Yahshua as;
Mat 7:23 NIV
(23) Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'
You tried to follow righteousness one time, but you either did not wait for the anointing of the Holy Spirit or you simply catered to the rebellion in your heart and took the broad path. Yahshua said it would be difficult, that's why He has rewards for those who "Endure to the end" There certainly isn't any difficulty in enduring in ones sin is there?
Rude awakenings await those on the broad path of easy sin and easy life. Beware, be ready, or be willing to return to the "narrow path" you forsook so many years ago.
SG