Helloo, first of all, I don't want to sound judgeful or close-minded at all, since all my entire family is catholic, I was raised catholic,and I was myself a catholic my entire life, so I know how the Catholic Church works...and I gotta tell you, since 2 years ago or so I started to really analyze where did they practices come from and I was just more and more confused, cause I noticed they have a lot of contradictions and practices that aren't on the Bible like for example : the saints ( this is a long topic since we apparently have a saint for EVERY issue); the virgin Mary and her holy immaculate conception, not to mention the way they pray to her; the infant baptism...and well this would be long , and almost all is already mentionen by trust_in_the_name articles.
The truth is...and again I don't want to sound judgeful...that yes, the CC purpose is to follow God, love Jesus, and be saved; but the way they do it...well it makes it really hard to accomplish and is easy to lose the purpose or understand why are you doing what you are doing.
I say this cause 2 or 3 years ago, I came to this point at my age to start analyzing religion, and tryind to be closer to God cause all my family was and IS very devoted in the catholic beliefs, so I started to say heyy im proudly a Catholic and finally I know where I am,but the truth was that I didn't even know why I prayed what I prayed, I didn't know what did the Bible said AT ALL, and a lot of things, I knew just ...the prayers enough to be called a good catholic and didn't think too much about it, and I was happy! cause I felt like okaay im doing fine, I go to church enough, I'm a good person, I pray the prayers the Father( the priest) told me to and well....I'm not a serial killer or something like that. ( I don't want to sound like making fun of it, but really that was how I felt).
And well....like many of you know, in mexico almost everyone are catholic, or considered catholic just cause the family is, so a protestant christian in mexico...well is not very common. So I had this friend, a christian friend since middle school, and that was the time when se was closer to her church, and a friend was going with her to a young adult talks, it was like Bible study for the youth with music (christian music) at the beginning. Well my friend told me to go, that it was kinda cool but i was likee naaaah, Im a catholic so I don't need to hear it.
The time passed, and one day I got convinced, I was like wth I'll go ! lol, so I did....and when I arrived well, first of all it is very true when they say Christians should be friendly and loving, cause I felt very welcomed and my first impression was hey this people is cool! So i kept going....but still I WAS CATHOLIC and I even told my friend that I was just going cause I was learning from the Bible and I liked it, and she was like okay I understand. Well with the time, after a lot of those talks, a kind of internal battle started inside me, without my consent lol. So I stopped going, cause I didn't like that feeling, like I was letting behind my beliefs and my friend asked mee, hey why aren't you going anymore? and I was like you know...I feel that if I keep going I'm betraying my beliefs; and in the other hand my mom was getting hesitating about letting me go, because she was scared I won't be catholic no more.
In this time when I stopped going I looked for the CC a lot more! I was trying to prove myself that the CC was correct, that me and my family weren't wrong so I went to the masses and prayed, but while the time was passing I started feeling like an emptyness, like that the masses didn't filled me no more,actually I started questioning me If they ever did ...and instead of listening to the priest when he was talking I kept thinking in my head, why do we have to say those words ? why they have all those saints in the altar ? why this?, why that?, etc etc .
Believe me...those days I was just trying to win that internal battle( I don't know how) that just wasn't letting me go. I started looking for information on internet, I went to Catholic sites to solve all my questions that the priest didn't answer. Oh about the priest...I forgot to say he is a very close friend of my family and very famous where I lived ( a lot of people consider him a saint), he actually used to go to my house to dinner sometimes, my parents used to take him to hospitals to pray for the sick, my dad helped him to install the lights on the church, etc. So in those visits he made, I never felt spiritually filled, he never told us something new, or read the Bible to us, he just told us to pray something, read a psalm and he confessed us. ( Don't misunderstand me, I respect him,I just don't like how people treat him, almost like if he was Jesus; and the fact that he didn't filled me spiritually ).
Well like I was saying before, in those internet sites, I was comparing like this : a christian site in one page, a catholic site in other, and after days and days of doing the same I just quit. I said ENOUGH the truth is....this catholic sites are just giving me more questions with their answers, cause when I was looking for a simple answer likee why do we pray to the Virgin Mary? the answer was ....In the bible says in Juan(John) 19:27 : and to the disciple, "Here is your mother." From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.
As you imagine, that was not enough for me cause that passage could've meaned a lot of things and then I was still wondering : why do we have to pray to her ? to worship her? the answers were: of course we are not worshiping her, but revering her cause she is a intermediary to Christ, and she needs to pray for us. I don't need to say I was even more confused since a looooooooot of passages of the bible were saying exactly the opposite, that is only Jesus the one we need to reach God. Then I saw kinda the same explanations about the saints, even with some popes...soo yes...I quit. I quit trying to find my answers on the CC.
So I'm here, I'm not a baptized Christian but I don't consider me Catholic anymore, since I don't believe a lot of their beliefs or practices and didn't had a good spiritual experience. So I just say, I'm christian, with no denominations, I'm not baptized but maybe someday I'd like to. I repeat...I'm not saying the CC is bad, cause there's a lot of respected and studios bishops out there... and hey I WAS A CATHOLIC PERSON, A REAL ONE...is just that I don't approve the method they use and the fact that ALMOST ALWAYS ( I don't pretend to generalize) the priests tell you that you are fine, to be a good person, pray and thenn... ta daaaaa, you are saved! maybe they dont say it like that...but is what you understand most of the times.
AND wow...I didn't expected to write this long, but I felt like I had to say something about this, since I live with my entire catholic family and I was raised catholic...so I dare to say I know what I'm talking about. If something sounded disrespectful I'm sorry, I didn't pretend to, it was just my experience .
God bless.