I know the apostles were mistreated and I know they despaired of life and that's the wall I've hit. So much wrong has happened and such grave injustice that I can hardly bear it. So I'm experiencing what the apostles have. But I'm just weary and God knows it yet does nothing. NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING.
Yes sometimes you can know all the verses but it doesn't do anything.
These are not new thoughts. God knows every aspect of human thought & emotion. From the time God heard the spilled blood of Abel calling for justice to the souls of the martyrs under his alter (Rev 6:9) calling to him. "How long O Lord?" He has carried the burden for justice. He feels everything deeper, longer and more intensely than we are capable of.
He isn't joking when he says "vengeance is mine".
I would suggest spend a bit of time reading
Lamentations , Job and
Ecclesiastes.
Injustice & accountability are addressed in many books.
"My God My God, why have you forsaken me?"
You are not alone.
Psalm 73:3 (NASB)
3 For I was envious of the arrogant
As I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
4 For
there are no pangs in their death,
But their strength
is firm.
5 They
are not in trouble
as other men,
Nor are they plagued like
other men.
6 Therefore pride serves as their necklace;
Violence covers them
like a garment.
7 Their eyes bulge with abundance;
They have more than heart could wish.
8 They scoff and speak wickedly
concerning oppression;
They speak loftily.
9 They set their mouth against the heavens,
And their tongue walks through the earth.
Jeremiah 12 (CSB)
You will be righteous, Lord,
even if I bring a case against you.
Yet, I wish to contend with you:
Why does the way of the wicked prosper?
Why do all the treacherous live at ease?
2 You planted them, and they have taken root.
They have grown and produced fruit.
You are ever on their lips,
but far from their conscience.
3 As for you, Lord, you know me; you see me.
You test whether my heart is with you.
Drag the wicked away like sheep to slaughter
and set them apart for the day of killing.
4 How long will the land mourn
and the grass of every field wither?
Because of the evil of its residents,
animals and birds have been swept away,
for the people have said,
“He cannot see what our end will be.
WAIT FOR IT!
2 Thessalonians 1 (NASB)
3 We ought always to give thanks to God for you, brethren, as is
only fitting, because your faith is greatly enlarged, and the love of each one of you toward one another grows
ever greater;
4 therefore, we ourselves speak proudly of you among the churches of God for your perseverance and faith in the midst of all your persecutions and afflictions which you endure.
5
This is a plain indication of God’s righteous judgment so that you will be considered worthy of the kingdom of God, for which indeed you are suffering.
6 For after all
it is only just for God to repay with affliction those who afflict you,
7
and to give relief to you who are afflicted and to us as well when the Lord Jesus will be revealed from heaven with His mighty angels in flaming fire,
8
dealing out retribution to those who do not know God and to those who do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus.
9 These will pay the penalty of eternal destruction, away from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of His power,
10 when He comes to be glorified in His saints on that day, and to be marveled at among all who have believed—for our testimony to you was believed.