If you are telling me the TRUTH, PRAISE THE LORD!
WELCOME TO THE FAMILY OF GOD!
The quicker you get grounded in the Word, the less likely the Devil with trip you up, or cause you to fall backwards.
It will take time to grow that new born spirit of yours, but you will find it an exciting journey in the Word of GOD.
May I suggest that you start with the Four Gospels. You will notice a slight difference in them, some stories are in all of them and some only one, etc. There is a reason for that.
John 21:25 (HCSB)
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25 [/SUP] And there are also many other things that Jesus did, which, if they were written one by one, I suppose not even the world itself could contain the books that would be written.
We only have the highlights of the life of Jesus for one. Plus each of the GOSPEL writers was focusing on a different facet or aspect of the person and ministry of Jesus Christ.
Matthew wrote about the things that validated that Jesus is King the rightful heir to the Throne of David.
Mark wrote about the things that validated Jesus came as a Servant to mankind by dieing for their sins.
Luke wrote about the things that validated that Jesus was also very Human.
John wrote about the things that validated that Jesus was GOD in the flesh.
In other words it is if you had a four sided, cube shaped shed and painted each side a different color. Then if you took four blindfolded friends and placed them close to different side of that shed, and asked them to take their blindfolds off, and describe the shed; they would all describe the shape the same but they would all describe the color different.
When you get done with the Gospels, may I suggest that you go on to 1 John. Many think 1 John is hard to understand, but there is little secret that will make it come alive to you. John LOVED to use the Greek perfect tense verbs. The perfect tense verbs we do not have in English, and they imply a lifestyle of doing that verb. They not describe the perfection of our Christian walk but rather they describe the DIRECTION of our Christian walk. For example:
1 John 2:3 (NKJV)
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3 [/SUP] Now by this we know that we know Him, if we
keep His commandments.
That "keep" is in the Perfect tense, but in English we only have Past, Present, and Future tenses.
So John is implying a lifestyle of continually
striving to keep, and not the perfection of our Christian Walk.
And what if we fail, and fall into sin?
1 John 1:9 (NKJV)
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9 [/SUP] If we
confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us
our sins and to cleanse us from
all unrighteousness.
And you guessed it that "confess" too is in the perfect tense. So it saying that our Christian Lifestyle is characterized by continually confessing each NEW sin as we discover it for what it is. Do we continually confessing OLD sins? NO, only if we happen to recommit them. Because it says HE has separated us from our sins, as far as the East is from the West. That means they are totally GONE, and totally Forgiven.
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If you do not have a home Church, may I suggest you try a Community Bible Church (non-Denominational) or my second favorite Baptist.