It sounds like you don’t believe you are required to keep the commands of Jesus. The Bible says otherwise.
If you love Jesus you’ll keep his commandments. If you don’t love Jesus you won’t keep his commandments. If you aren’t loving Jesus then if you have forsaken the love you may have had at first and, like the Ephesus church, you are called to do the things you did at first and repent. The things you did at first were Jesus’ commands.
John 14
15“If you love me, keep my commands.
Revelation 2
4Yet I hold this against you:
You have forsaken the love you had at first.
5Consider how far
you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.