What gets me is peter know my hurts i have mentioned about my scars of not being loved by my father... i blame the enemy but still i have a hard understanding why someone would go through with the actions that he went through with me..
When i see this clip of the father watching his child always watching his son does not come to no harm it breaks my heart that some fathers would not... i had it only in part and not in full... However would i do the same,,,,absolutely not my father actually tried to kill me several times to destroy evidence...... he made me jump into a tigers den when i was 4 i survived but he just stood there and watched whilst i saw of a snow leaopard coz he raped me when i was 3 he made climb buildings told me jump in front of cars he did everything he could to kill me as a child and make it look like accidental death..
he was throthing at the mouth one day when i was 11 he said ive done everything i can to kill you why cant i kill you you little bastard.. i was terified of him.... on another acaison he tried to make me satand on a live railway line he was following me with his tape recorder that could send a wirless signal to a tiny small device he had planted in my ear... telling me to save the world and stand on a live railway line... coz he knew i knew stuffabout him that would one day come out...
I still have a hard time dealing with the hurt of this but i know it satan who had a hold of him.. there is nothing we can do to stop this oonly wait... but im sure God saved my life manytimes...
so i dont like to speak about it all publicy but peter keeps on suggestiong that somehow its all my fault ? for not being mature in heart enough to react properly he labels me a physopath por how ever you spell that...
Anyway how would he know how long the heart would take to heal from theese wounds..... and why would i be a physopath for being traumatised by this ?
When i see this clip of the father watching his child always watching his son does not come to no harm it breaks my heart that some fathers would not... i had it only in part and not in full... However would i do the same,,,,absolutely not my father actually tried to kill me several times to destroy evidence...... he made me jump into a tigers den when i was 4 i survived but he just stood there and watched whilst i saw of a snow leaopard coz he raped me when i was 3 he made climb buildings told me jump in front of cars he did everything he could to kill me as a child and make it look like accidental death..
he was throthing at the mouth one day when i was 11 he said ive done everything i can to kill you why cant i kill you you little bastard.. i was terified of him.... on another acaison he tried to make me satand on a live railway line he was following me with his tape recorder that could send a wirless signal to a tiny small device he had planted in my ear... telling me to save the world and stand on a live railway line... coz he knew i knew stuffabout him that would one day come out...
I still have a hard time dealing with the hurt of this but i know it satan who had a hold of him.. there is nothing we can do to stop this oonly wait... but im sure God saved my life manytimes...
so i dont like to speak about it all publicy but peter keeps on suggestiong that somehow its all my fault ? for not being mature in heart enough to react properly he labels me a physopath por how ever you spell that...
Anyway how would he know how long the heart would take to heal from theese wounds..... and why would i be a physopath for being traumatised by this ?