Did I blaspheme against the Holy Spirit? Am I not worthy? Does he even care? What the hell did I do to deserve all of this? I have a mental illness and have prayed for years for help. None has been given as far as I can see well at least nothing lasting. So has God forsaken me? Has he told me to get lost? What is going on?
Maybe God is saying "not yet" or "ok, but it will take a while".
In that, I mean it like this:
A man walked into an art gallery and saw a man working on a statue of horse from marble.
"I just don't know how you do that", said the man marvelling over the beautiful piece of art.
"it's easy," said the sculpter, "I just take off everything that doesn't look like a horse."
If you pray for a new job, God prepares you for it. If you want to be an evangelist, for example, you just may lose your job and maybe your house. Then, you'd be FREE to travel the country to preach the Gospel just like a travelling evangelist!
Finally, the Word said that a thousand years is a day to God. He just may say "ok, wait a second". A "second" to God is about 8 months to us. (figure that out)
Hang in there!
John