I appreciate eveyryones reply. My husband has always been very bad at showing affection in times of need but I wish he would. I believe this problem comes from his father since he too, has problems showing affection. I am praying to God to give me wisdom and to heal my heart so that I may get over this soon. We haven't touched the ideas of marriage counseling but I am sure we both would agree to it.
I wasn't searching for anything in particular when I found those pictures. I feel that if there isn't something to hide then spouses should have the right to look through eachothers phones. I wasn't looking thru his messages, I was looking at his pictures because he had recently taken pictures of our daughter. I am in no means a controlling wife, but I felt the need at that particular moment to check his previous photos and there they were. I truly believe that God wanted me to see them so we could address the problem before it got out of hand. He got caught and I feel that IS why he apologized, he could have came clean to me but he didn't. I am a very respectful woman that Loves God and loyal to my husband. I've had number of men talk to me or ask me out while being married and I have never ever done something to damage my marriage. I fear God and He knows that I am trying very hard to be a better mother, wife and to love Him with all my heart.
I may not be the best wife but God knows my heart, I try to be better each day. My husband complains about me getting mad at certain things but GOD has done a big change in my life thru the years. There are times when we are talking not arguing and if I voice my opinion he thinks I am getting mad and accuses me of exploding. I have learned to stay silent and I only ask God to help me thru this. I want our marriage to be stronger and for both of us to live a Godly life. Thank you guys
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