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I read the first three pages and I don't think that I can read any further than that because I agree with some of what you say and have an unnerving queasiness about some other things that you say.
On the one hand, I definitely agree that a marital relationship has God-given authority attached to it and that a husband ought to lay down his life for his wife as Christ laid down His life for the church and that a wife ought to submit to and reverence her own husband as the church submits to and reverences Christ. In that regard, I partly don't have a problem with you referring to your husband as master, but the capitalization of such and him picking out your clothes and such does creep me out to a great extent. Furthermore, any mastery should never be of his own choosing, but he himself must be submissive to Christ and then pass along any instruction from Christ to you and any children that you might have. Further regarding your use of master to describe your husband, godly women of old like Sarah did refer to their husbands as lord, lower case l, but something about your testimony does make me queasy nonetheless. I Peter chapter 3 verses 1 thru 6 reads:
Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives;
While they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear.
Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel;
But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price.
For after this manner in the old time the holy women also, who trusted in God, adorned themselves, being in subjection unto their own husbands:
Even as Sara obeyed Abraham, calling him lord: whose daughters ye are, as long as ye do well, and are not afraid with any amazement.
Peter was referring to Genesis chapter 18 verse 12 where Sarah referred to Abraham as lord after the Lord told Abraham that Sarah was going to have a son:
Therefore Sarah laughed within herself, saying, After I am waxed old shall I have pleasure, my lord being old also?
The word translated as lord does mean lord or master, so there is an element of truth to a godly wife referring to her own husband in such a manner, but, again, something still makes me queasy when I read about your relationship, but I may be wrong.
This comment in your signature, "She kneels humbled at His feet. He lifts up her face and smiles. "Good girl, I love you" He softly whispers on her skin", is that you kneeling humbled at Jesus' feet or at your husband's feet? If it's at your husband's feet and he's telling you, "Good girl" like you're a puppy or something, then something just isn't right.
I also cannot help but wonder why you have to publicly advertise your submission to your husband, even making it your username? Why would a submissive wife have to advertise? Again, something just doesn't seem right.
On the one hand, I definitely agree that a marital relationship has God-given authority attached to it and that a husband ought to lay down his life for his wife as Christ laid down His life for the church and that a wife ought to submit to and reverence her own husband as the church submits to and reverences Christ. In that regard, I partly don't have a problem with you referring to your husband as master, but the capitalization of such and him picking out your clothes and such does creep me out to a great extent. Furthermore, any mastery should never be of his own choosing, but he himself must be submissive to Christ and then pass along any instruction from Christ to you and any children that you might have. Further regarding your use of master to describe your husband, godly women of old like Sarah did refer to their husbands as lord, lower case l, but something about your testimony does make me queasy nonetheless. I Peter chapter 3 verses 1 thru 6 reads:
Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives;
While they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear.
Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel;
But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price.
For after this manner in the old time the holy women also, who trusted in God, adorned themselves, being in subjection unto their own husbands:
Even as Sara obeyed Abraham, calling him lord: whose daughters ye are, as long as ye do well, and are not afraid with any amazement.
Peter was referring to Genesis chapter 18 verse 12 where Sarah referred to Abraham as lord after the Lord told Abraham that Sarah was going to have a son:
Therefore Sarah laughed within herself, saying, After I am waxed old shall I have pleasure, my lord being old also?
The word translated as lord does mean lord or master, so there is an element of truth to a godly wife referring to her own husband in such a manner, but, again, something still makes me queasy when I read about your relationship, but I may be wrong.
This comment in your signature, "She kneels humbled at His feet. He lifts up her face and smiles. "Good girl, I love you" He softly whispers on her skin", is that you kneeling humbled at Jesus' feet or at your husband's feet? If it's at your husband's feet and he's telling you, "Good girl" like you're a puppy or something, then something just isn't right.
I also cannot help but wonder why you have to publicly advertise your submission to your husband, even making it your username? Why would a submissive wife have to advertise? Again, something just doesn't seem right.
