JFSurvivor: i know what you feel right now
i face the similiar situation like you these days
its not an easy feeling.. Each minutes i'll check my message, each time my heart and my mind cant focus on what i do.. The only thing i can suggest you is give everything to God.. FOCUS in God.. i know its not an easy thing to do
but keep praying and keep praying.. maybe deep inside my heart i dont want him to be just friend, maybe i want him more without i realize it.. i dont know with you but i'll pray for you
when my mind didnt go like i want i always try to stop and said in 2 Corinthians 10:5 with faith.. and instead of wondering why this is happened etc etc say thanks God for ... or ... it helps me a lot!! Trust in GOD!! ^_^