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I am moving because my husband took the only source of income with him when he left....the business that I worked many years to build just as he did. The bank has informed me that I do not qualify for the option of refinancing or assuming the loan in my name alone. It is very hard for me to leave this place but I have no other choice. I don't drive, even if I did I don't have a car. I have been out of the mainstream work force for almost 20 years as we were self employed and that was a labor job. I have no marketable skills to fall back on. He has basically left me with nothing. If not for my son I would be sitting here in the dark with no food and I would certainly have no internet access. I find it strange that even through all the anger and resentment that I am feeling for him....in the end I really do feel more sorry for him than anything else. He is alone and miserable from what I have been told. Yes, I do feel that I gave this marriage all that I had and then some. I think I really should have ended it a long time ago. Looking back does no good in that area though. It will only cause more bitterness and resentment and I have quite enough of that to work through! I pray each night for God to show me his will for my life. It is going to take some time and probably a lot of tears but I will get through it. I have to say it has been quite an experience. Never in my life did I think I would be considering someone I loved was somehow affected by demons. I guess I just never really thought about it in the terms of it happening in daily life so to say. Im thinking much differently these days.