@ prodiguos1one
I think that you were talking about my fiance? And thanks, I'm glad that sharing his experiences could help you
He has opened up now that he's been in college and he's gained more friends, but he sometimes stays weekends to hang out with main male buddy and his family. He still walks around with him, though I don't think they've been made fun of for quite some time.
My fiance and I can both relate to your shyness, minimal friends, and fear of being influenced by the wrong people. I went through several years of not having any friends besides family. I allowed myself to get so couped up I didn't want to go very far from my house without a family member near me. My fiance (whom I met at church) was very patient with me.... and it took him nearly a year before I was willing to trust him. I was pretty much a "touch me not" sort of person and socially awkward when we met.
I think that it is good that you are allowing yourself to open up to others. I think that slowly over time you will feel more relaxed and personable around others. Just be patient with yourself.
If you keep yourself away from people... it will eat away at your opportunities to show godly love towards them and plant seeds of Truth. God made us to be relational beings. We are to grow in our relationship with God and to daily mature in being more like Him. He wants to reach out to those in needs/lost. We are all sinners and we all deserve the punishment of death. But Christ came to seek and save the lost, and took that punishment upon himself. In doing so, we are able to have that relationship with God we were meant to have.
It's true that we need to be careful around the unsaved, and make sure that we aren't being the ones influenced to turn away from God. We are called to live in the World but not to be OF it. Let God guide you, pray that He'll show you wisdom in your relationships, and He'll not give you more than you can handle. Please don't let fear and insecurity get in the way of opportunities to help others. You can make an impact
Do focus on having godly friends.... people that you can be advised by, prayed for/with, be accountable to, and share love C: I think your relationship with God will be deepen this way, too. It will help you feel more confident in yourself and Him.
And yes... focus on what God says... not so much on what other's say.