PS~ the tears were in gratitude to God... and the grief I have caused, and suffered, as a result of not feeling loved.
“Ah, love, let us be true to one another!
For the world, which seems to lie before us
Like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.” Matthew Arnold