Well..... that was a bit of a show stopper. I appreciate your candor. It's not like I don't. It was just.... honest, I guess. And it's concerning an issue not altered by faith or disposition or even age. It is a stumbling block and we humans subject ourselves to such agonizing fault.
You live in a body, Robertt. In a way I can't even hope to understand, Christ Jesus, too, lived in such a carnal way and spent all his days in this bodily desert. Resisting.
There's two things I guess I had to understand. Absolution and a spiritual life. Read Romans 8. Then read it again and again till it begins to sink in. And understand Grace. If you are bold enough to confess, be humble enough to be enlightened.