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Midnight confession. Let's see. . .

I have social problems. Not because I suffer from social anxiety (or maybe I do, I don't know), but because I have problems wanting to be around other people. Everytime I am with someone, no matter who, later I need to go to my room and be alone. If I need to go outside for whatever reason, when I come back home I feel the need to go back to my room and stay there until I get hungry or go out to see how the family is doing.

I like being alone, I can't help it. The only presence I feel comfortable with is Jesus, and with Him is more than enough for me.

I can be with people, but after talking to someone I feel rather drained, like I have been doing a presentation in front of the school or something like that. I prefer texting over talking, and if I feel in a bad mood, I can spend days locked in my room not talking to anyone, going out for nothing but to use the toilet or pick some food. The longest I've been locked in the house was last year until barely some months ago, a year and a half in total.
I know I'm rather asocial, and I know is something I have to overcome, and I'm trying, though is really difficult for me. I want to try opening up more, and I supposed being in a forum would be a good place to start, so I think is also one of the reasons why I joined :).

So yeah, that's one of my confessions, if it can be called that.
 
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Thank you so much @JesusLives and @tourist. God bless you both! I did feel a little better today. I am still sad about my grandma being gone. It hurts especially because the holidays are coming...she loved Christmas!
I am 29 by the way (I was born the same year the Little Mermaid came out :giggle:). Yes, I definitely feel stressed out right now. I feel overwhelmed with work and school and grieving. But your prayers really helped me. Thanks again!
 

JesusLives

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Thank you so much @JesusLives and @tourist. God bless you both! I did feel a little better today. I am still sad about my grandma being gone. It hurts especially because the holidays are coming...she loved Christmas!
I am 29 by the way (I was born the same year the Little Mermaid came out :giggle:). Yes, I definitely feel stressed out right now. I feel overwhelmed with work and school and grieving. But your prayers really helped me. Thanks again!
Well more virtual hugs for you on the loss of your Grandmother. It's hard to say goodbye to those we love when they leave us. God knows your pain and feelings of loss. I think he cries with us at times.

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Midnight confession. Let's see. . .

I have social problems. Not because I suffer from social anxiety (or maybe I do, I don't know), but because I have problems wanting to be around other people. Everytime I am with someone, no matter who, later I need to go to my room and be alone. If I need to go outside for whatever reason, when I come back home I feel the need to go back to my room and stay there until I get hungry or go out to see how the family is doing.

I like being alone, I can't help it. The only presence I feel comfortable with is Jesus, and with Him is more than enough for me.

I can be with people, but after talking to someone I feel rather drained, like I have been doing a presentation in front of the school or something like that. I prefer texting over talking, and if I feel in a bad mood, I can spend days locked in my room not talking to anyone, going out for nothing but to use the toilet or pick some food. The longest I've been locked in the house was last year until barely some months ago, a year and a half in total.
I know I'm rather asocial, and I know is something I have to overcome, and I'm trying, though is really difficult for me. I want to try opening up more, and I supposed being in a forum would be a good place to start, so I think is also one of the reasons why I joined :).

So yeah, that's one of my confessions, if it can be called that.
I am surrounded by people at work and by the time I punch out at the end of the day I feel drained too. I enjoy a quiet life with just my wife as our kids are grown and I appreciate the solitude.

I feel comfortable with Jesus too and talk to God all day long while I am working.

It is not good to hibernate at home for great lengths of time but I understand why you do it. Eventually, we have to face the world and I face it each day. Before leaving for work I pray for God to be with me all day long and to calm any fear and anxiety that I may be dealing with.

I enjoyed reading your confession very much and I appreciate the honesty and courage it took to write it. I will say a prayer for God's will and desire to be accomplished in your life. "Fear not" says the Lord. Yes, I know that it is easier said than done but just remember that God will neither leave or forsake you.
 

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"The sound of your footsteps, telling me that you're near. Your soft, gentle motion babe, brings out a need in me that no one can hear.."
From "Midnight Confessions" by Grass Roots


A forum for the one secret confession that you do not want revealed
but are brave enough to admit for all to see.


My name is tourist and I have a serious nicotine addiction. I once told God that I wanted quit smoking. He did not answer my prayer as He knew that I was lying to him. Perhaps when I am serious he will deliver me from this self-imposed affliction, and other things as well that do not belong in my life.
I know a single guy who's in the same boat as you, and it's not an easy question. He has been struggling because of his drinking and smoking. Some sisters in the church were reluctant to fall in love with him because of this problem.
 

tourist

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I know a single guy who's in the same boat as you, and it's not an easy question. He has been struggling because of his drinking and smoking. Some sisters in the church were reluctant to fall in love with him because of this problem.
I thank God that I gave up drinking in 1992 but giving up smoking has been a hard thing to do. I have quit several times but always went back to it. I am getting older now and don't want to be a slave to smoking any longer, besides that I want to live as long as possible and that means I will definitely have to quit. Also, my wife is quite happy with me as her husband but it breaks her heart that I still smoke as it killed both of her parents before she was 12 years old. So this is like driving a wedge between us so mostly I want to quit for her and pray to God this happens in 2019. Thank you for contributing to my thread. I will say a prayer for God to bless you.
 

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I thank God that I gave up drinking in 1992 but giving up smoking has been a hard thing to do. I have quit several times but always went back to it. I am getting older now and don't want to be a slave to smoking any longer, besides that I want to live as long as possible and that means I will definitely have to quit. Also, my wife is quite happy with me as her husband but it breaks her heart that I still smoke as it killed both of her parents before she was 12 years old. So this is like driving a wedge between us so mostly I want to quit for her and pray to God this happens in 2019. Thank you for contributing to my thread. I will say a prayer for God to bless you.

Obviously the longer that you've been smoking the more difficult that it is to quit. I've finally been successful using the nicotine lozenges.
 

tourist

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Obviously the longer that you've been smoking the more difficult that it is to quit. I've finally been successful using the nicotine lozenges.
I actually have 3 containers of those that were given to me in a stop-smoking support group but haven't really tried them. I did try the patches but it appears that I am allergic to the adhesive as there was severe itching and they left square blotches on my skin that took over a month to finally fade away. Yes, I am going to try the lozenges.

This whole thing is becoming an embarrassment to me, I say that I am gong to quit but all I do is talk a good game, no positive action taken whatsoever. Yes, I am an addict but that is not an excuse but rather a statement of truth.

I did like your ideas about putting the $5 a day in a jar, save some money and treat my honey to a steak dinner and maybe buy her some flowers too and perhaps take a romantic get-away vacation too.

I do thank God that I decided to abstain from alcohol in 1992 or otherwise I would probably be an alcoholic too. I still like alcohol but I choose not to do that type of activity. I need the same mentality about smoking, that it is something that I enjoy but I choose to live rather than die. Live or die is really the two choices in this equation. May God allow me to choose wisely. He's rooting for me too to quit this filthy habit.
 

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I thank God that I gave up drinking in 1992 but giving up smoking has been a hard thing to do. I have quit several times but always went back to it. I am getting older now and don't want to be a slave to smoking any longer, besides that I want to live as long as possible and that means I will definitely have to quit. Also, my wife is quite happy with me as her husband but it breaks her heart that I still smoke as it killed both of her parents before she was 12 years old. So this is like driving a wedge between us so mostly I want to quit for her and pray to God this happens in 2019. Thank you for contributing to my thread. I will say a prayer for God to bless you.
I wish you success and trust in god to help you. Just as god helped you find your wife before, and I am now in the depression and fear of being single, I also need god's grace to guide me not to rely on marriage and anyone else.
 
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I actually have 3 containers of those that were given to me in a stop-smoking support group but haven't really tried them. I did try the patches but it appears that I am allergic to the adhesive as there was severe itching and they left square blotches on my skin that took over a month to finally fade away. Yes, I am going to try the lozenges.

This whole thing is becoming an embarrassment to me, I say that I am gong to quit but all I do is talk a good game, no positive action taken whatsoever. Yes, I am an addict but that is not an excuse but rather a statement of truth.

I did like your ideas about putting the $5 a day in a jar, save some money and treat my honey to a steak dinner and maybe buy her some flowers too and perhaps take a romantic get-away vacation too.

I do thank God that I decided to abstain from alcohol in 1992 or otherwise I would probably be an alcoholic too. I still like alcohol but I choose not to do that type of activity. I need the same mentality about smoking, that it is something that I enjoy but I choose to live rather than die. Live or die is really the two choices in this equation. May God allow me to choose wisely. He's rooting for me too to quit this filthy habit.
Have you tried vaping? I heard that it has helped people trying to quit real cigarettes.


I wish you success and trust in god to help you. Just as god helped you find your wife before, and I am now in the depression and fear of being single, I also need god's grace to guide me not to rely on marriage and anyone else.
Don't worry, you're pretty. You'll find someone or they wll find you. Just don't be so picky that you reject anyone who isn't perfect.
 

tourist

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Have you tried vaping? I heard that it has helped people trying to quit real cigarettes.




Don't worry, you're pretty. You'll find someone or they wll find you. Just don't be so picky that you reject anyone who isn't perfect.
Actually, my doctor recommended it as I would still get my nicotine and the actions of smoking but without the harmful tars and the many other poisons. I agree with what you said to Rong too. :)
 

tourist

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I wish you success and trust in god to help you. Just as god helped you find your wife before, and I am now in the depression and fear of being single, I also need god's grace to guide me not to rely on marriage and anyone else.
God's grace will guide you with the Holy Spirit. I know about depression and that is hard to deal with but just know that God loves you and -cares about you very much.