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I never used a thermometer, I just went by look and feel of viscosity as it was being mixed, and then poured at just the right moment. I think chocolate pecan may be on the agenda/menu when I next get around to making fudge. (Bob likes pistachios :D:love: I like many different kinds of nuts, and we both like chocolate :)) I was looking up recipes the other night when Bob and I were discussing fudge… because all I remember being in it was white and brown sugar, and butter. Some recipes called for sweetened condensed milk o_O I think I will pass on that, though maybe a little would not be bad by adding to the overall creaminess of the texture. However, a well made fudge is already melt-in-your-mouth creamy sweet. Sweets for my sweet Bob will be a regular menu item :love:
Bob is going to be one happy man that's for sure.
 

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Some people in my church had a strange reaction to all this as if thirty going on thirty one years of separation meant nothing. It bordered on offensive legalism to both Bob and I, but I cut them some slack because I know my pastors care for me, and they want the best for me. They have also heard much more of my "story/history" as it relates to this issue since then, and are more understanding and accepting. They have moved to desiring to give marriage counselling now :):love::D:love::)

Whatever the failings of my ex may be, he achieved almost sainthood in my eyes when he cared for his ailing mother in her declining years. He and my daughter are still living in his parents house as he cares for his dad, who will be 97 next month. His only sister lives with them also since she retired a few years ago, and there are more animals than people in the house except when I visit once a week to hang out with my daughter :giggle: You have probably seen pics of the dogs over the years :)

Despite a very rocky beginning to her life, I have quite a good relationship with my daughter. I do not know if I ever told you because I do not share a lot of my past often in this public forum, but she was born at twenty four weeks gestation weighing under a pound and a half at a time of my life when I did not want to be married at all following two first trimester miscarriages and a still birth that happened just before I got married. I do not like talking about my past. It is over and done, we have both moved on, and my life has completely changed a lot since then, starting when I firs got sober in 1994 (he is not), but especially since I was saved just over fourteen years ago.

I think I recall you or Darlene saying there have been premature births in your family, also...

Meeting Bob here and our coming to care for each other as we do is no less than a miracle to me :love: I feel so very blessed. God is more than good. The recent set back in our plans has not dampened my spirits. I have faith, and I praise His Holy Name.
By some strange coincidence my daughter Jacklynne only weighed 1 1/2 pounds too. I believe that the umbilical cord is supposed to have 3 blood vessels but hers had only two and apparently she was malnourished in the womb. She's fine now and we have a very good father / daughter relationship.

Yes, continue to have faith that things will all work out for the glory of God and for the happiness for the both of you.

I enjoy your posts very much and appreciate your candor and honesty. You are definitely an interesting intelligent woman.

I am glad that your church has warmed up to the idea of your divorce and remarriage. Darlene and I had 4 weeks of counseling from our church too before we got married. I highly recommend it and it will provide a good opportunity to really get to know each other better.

I really don't like talking about my past either but I believe that is the past that defines who we are today.
 
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I'm afraid that no matter how much time passes things will never change. I act weird and people can read me from a mile away. They know I'm awkward and out of place.
There have been so many things I've missed out on...and it's not that I want those years back. I just want to feel normal. Why can't I be a normal 29 year old who has friends and goes out on weekends? It's just another Friday alone with my books and laptop for me. It's been this way all my life. While all the other girls hung out with each other, I stayed home watching tv with my parents. Even my little brother went out.
I don't care about missing out anymore...but now I feel like I lack the skills I should have developed years ago. I work full time and go to school but socially, I'm so behind. I'm alone and it's all my fault.
 

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I'm afraid that no matter how much time passes things will never change. I act weird and people can read me from a mile away. They know I'm awkward and out of place.
There have been so many things I've missed out on...and it's not that I want those years back. I just want to feel normal. Why can't I be a normal 29 year old who has friends and goes out on weekends? It's just another Friday alone with my books and laptop for me. It's been this way all my life. While all the other girls hung out with each other, I stayed home watching tv with my parents. Even my little brother went out.
I don't care about missing out anymore...but now I feel like I lack the skills I should have developed years ago. I work full time and go to school but socially, I'm so behind. I'm alone and it's all my fault.
I really wouldn't worry too much about being behind socially. I enjoy an occasional afternoon or evening out with my wife but other that I prefer the peace and quiet of my home. At work I am surrounded by people and constant chatter I am always happy to leave that behind for the workday.

I really don't care about being social at all. Basically I limit my social activities to with my wife and occasionally family, my daughter and grandchildren. You may feel that you are behind the social curve but I am telling you that you're not really missing much. Books and laptop work for me too. I guess that it doesn't take much to amuse me or find contentment

If I felt normal I would consider seeing a doctor 'cause there probably is something wrong with me. For me, each day it's the 'new normal'. I enjoyed your post very much and appreciate that you shared a snippet of your story on my thread.
 
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I really wouldn't worry too much about being behind socially. I enjoy an occasional afternoon or evening out with my wife but other that I prefer the peace and quiet of my home. At work I am surrounded by people and constant chatter I am always happy to leave that behind for the workday.

I really don't care about being social at all. Basically I limit my social activities to with my wife and occasionally family, my daughter and grandchildren. You may feel that you are behind the social curve but I am telling you that you're not really missing much. Books and laptop work for me too. I guess that it doesn't take much to amuse me or find contentment

If I felt normal I would consider seeing a doctor 'cause there probably is something wrong with me. For me, each day it's the 'new normal'. I enjoyed your post very much and appreciate that you shared a snippet of your story on my thread.
Thank you brother! I have been going through a season of ups and downs lately. I'm a little embarrassed for posting this on here. It's like I get in these moods and I need to vent somehow. But I appreciate you and everyone else out there reading. GBU!
 

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I stayed up all night texting until I fell asleep this morning.
I don't think that I sent out 10 texts in my entire life. I might be socially challenged in this regard. Not much for talking on the phone either. I do enjoy actual face to face communication but there are times that becomes problematic. I'm either behind socially or perhaps I'm an introvert. Right now I'm trending towards depression but I pray each morning for God to calm my fears and lift my spirits so I can accomplish the work that my heavenly father has prepared for me beforehand. The struggle is real but life must go on.
 

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I don't think that I sent out 10 texts in my entire life. I might be socially challenged in this regard. Not much for talking on the phone either. I do enjoy actual face to face communication but there are times that becomes problematic. I'm either behind socially or perhaps I'm an introvert. Right now I'm trending towards depression but I pray each morning for God to calm my fears and lift my spirits so I can accomplish the work that my heavenly father has prepared for me beforehand. The struggle is real but life must go on.

I've dealt with that, and I feel you. I prayed for you, and will continue.
 
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I can't even be social on social media anymore. I used to be an introvert in real life and an extrovert online, but now I can't socialize at all.
 
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You know one thing that's stopping me is that I can't talk about anything real here. The responses here are so predictable its almost comical and everything is judged against the squeaky clean, perfect christian image.
 
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You know one thing that's stopping me is that I can't talk about anything real here. The responses here are so predictable its almost comical and everything is judged against the squeaky clean, perfect christian image.
Real? I have been trying to push that barrier where I can posting here. I’ve been pretty open about some past struggles and that sort of thing. I’m not sure if that is the sort of thing you are talking about.
 
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Real? I have been trying to push that barrier where I can posting here. I’ve been pretty open about some past struggles and that sort of thing. I’m not sure if that is the sort of thing you are talking about.
Its ok to post about anything, its just that the answers are so predictable. To me they are anyway.
 
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Hamarr

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Its ok to post about anything, its just that the answers are so predictable. To me they are anyway.
Sorry for my ignorance, is that because of being in this community for so long, or the type of answers you get from Christians or something else?
 
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You know one thing that's stopping me is that I can't talk about anything real here. The responses here are so predictable its almost comical and everything is judged against the squeaky clean, perfect christian image.
It’s just a front people are using. Most of us are struggling with different types of issues. Me, I’m struggling with dyslexia, PTSD, and some other stuff.
 
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Sorry for my ignorance, is that because of being in this community for so long, or the type of answers you get from Christians or something else?
Yes but I don't think one has to be here long to notice. For example if someone asks how to go about finding a mate, most of the answers would say to pray about it and wait. If someone asks how to know if that person is "the one", most answers would again be to pray about it, and a few will criticize the concept of "the one". If someone asks, what do you look for in a mate? You'll get "puts God first" as number one trait, followed by "tall" (from women), and "sense of humor".
 

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I got a job at a nearby casino. With my first check, I'm going to divorce my unbelieving wife.
 

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After that, I might consider a relationship with the lady I went to school with some 30-something years ago.
 

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You know one thing that's stopping me is that I can't talk about anything real here. The responses here are so predictable its almost comical and everything is judged against the squeaky clean, perfect christian image.
I get what you are saying about a certain few who judge another against a squeaky clean, perfect Christian image. The thing is, such a person does not exist. These people should look into a mirror and see their own image and leave the judging to the Professional, who, after sin is confessed, remembers no more but rather sees a squeaky clean, perfect Christian image. People that judge need to use Windex to remove the film in the mirror. There are those that are spiritually immature and biblically naïve. That's to be expected in a large sampling size of this site.