Marriage is not absurd. See now I know this next sentence sound harsh, but tis not meant so. You're not celibate, you're no virgin, elsewise you'd know your OP is what every virgin that wants to be married desires. You were married the first time you entered the woman (1 Corinthians 6:16.) There ain't nothing wrong with that either so long as the two stay as one. I hope you'll get your wife back Sir Sirk. I will keep silently praying for you to get her back and for her love to return to you in fullness. Mine carnal parents divorced each other before I was born and then got back together. Nothing is impossible with love and God.