It's ironic the song is My Heart Will Go On. Or is it? Does that song remind you of someone who died (which based on the chorus, I think is the intended meaning), or does it remind you of someone you're trying to forget? (which is what I'm assuming... that it is a guy you want to forget) Cause if it's the later, you don't want their heart to go on inside yours, you want to get them out.
There was a time I couldn't listen to "Idol" singing performances with a pal because the songs were basically all love songs, about one making an effort to woo someone, or someone asking to be wooed more (like Genie in a Bottle), which made me too sad to listen to it; because I knew I couldve pressed to 'get/secure' someone gone, but my mind tells me it would have just prolonged the inevitable.
There was a time I couldn't listen to "Idol" singing performances with a pal because the songs were basically all love songs, about one making an effort to woo someone, or someone asking to be wooed more (like Genie in a Bottle), which made me too sad to listen to it; because I knew I couldve pressed to 'get/secure' someone gone, but my mind tells me it would have just prolonged the inevitable.
So of course, that movie blew up and as everyone knows, it was EVERYWHERE. There was ALWAYS something related to that movie on the radio, on TV, conversations during chat circles, in stores, etc., and my brain interpreted anything to do with the movie as a big flashing neon sign that constantly screamed, "REJECTION."
I still wince every time I hear those first few oh-too-familiar notes whenever the song is played.
And I completely understand what you're saying about not wanting to listen to love songs as well. I'm really sorry for the hardships you went through and I'm glad that at the very least, you were able to let go (at least partially) and hopefully avoid an extended amount of pain.
I would have been more than happy to lock myself away on a desert island for a few years during that time, because I didn't want to be reminded of anything having to do with "love" either.
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