Essentially, it's a situation where NOT using a specific "crutch" has become a crutch to me.
This may be a bit hard to explain, but there is something in my life that most people would consider to be something of an advantage, but I have been determined not to use it as such. And eventually it reached a point, I believe, where I am not enjoying life to the fullest because I am shrinking from this "crutch".
Shrinking from something is not strong, it is not brave, it is not necessary, and it is not right. And so I am becoming determined to lose the second crutch by embracing the first one. Because trying to gain strength by devaluing something else is actually a kind of weakness.