Man... Maybe Christianity isn't for me. I like the general idea of it. That there is a God and that He/She/or it does love me.
You know, I tried going secular. Tried ignoring Christianity. But, I always ran into people who believed. Or who had some sort of belief in it. I did the best I could to not think about God, or Jesus, or the Bible in general.
But my thoughts alway brought me back to that stuid book. To those stupid songs. And the stupid people who told me God is good. Or God is real. Or Jesus is the Son of God.
It brought me back to caring for something.
I may not be a typical christian, or a walking talking Bible, or have a Pastor's Suit, or be a martyr, but I do know that the Bible calls for something good out of us.
It's just some of us have to work harder, or walk longer, or even suffer for it. And that's a difficult pill to swallow.
"Teacher," said John, "we saw someone driving out demons in your name and we told him to stop, because he was not one of us."
You may feel closer to God on your walk, but there are certain things on mine that I clearly understand.