I'm grateful for those of you who have welcomed me here. It has been such a joy to visit normal from time to time.
In the normal world people can meet at a convenience store and go for coffee. In my world, a lady sits in a restaurant with her back to the wall where she can see all windows/doors, with her legs crossed in a way that makes it easy to access her ankle holster in case the guy walking toward her has more in mind than offering to buy her a drink.
In a normal world people can post photos of their children on Facebook (though I seriously question the wisdom from what I've seen). In my world, one discourages a child from any Internet activity and checks every photo to be sure no name or location is detectable.
In a normal world most people are thinking about what to make for dinner upon arrival at home. In my world, a gap in my front drapes sets off a red flag that someone may have been in my house (which happened earlier this year).
In a normal world people don't have to wonder whether a sales call or wrong number call was really a wrong number or sales call.
It has been wonderful to escape from staying one step ahead of the pack to read about normal problems.
I thank you also for the privilege of knowing you, loving you, sharing with you and praying for you. It has truly been an honor and I wish you all God's most abundant blessings. <3
I know what you're thinking. There's a challenge walking the passage of good and evil. It's not for the lame of heart. Can one be a priest by day and a vampire hunter by night? Does wood from the cross keep the iron sharp? Because we are bound by the Law of Grace - that is - mercy that has imparted to us children of God all the merit he or she could ever need (John 116; Romans 5:1-2; 8:1-2; Col 2:9-10 does not mean we Christians are without law, but rather we are redeemed by grace and that places on us a duty - or really rather a gracious privilege - of not doing that which is displeasing to Him. So, as many have said before, the law was never given to provide a way for life, it was given to declare sinfulness and to erect God's perfection which we will never attain.
So how do you reckon that when most of what you are dealing with are the chief abusers of law, sometimes even among your own ranks? I would think you would become a cynic, or form a critical view of the world. It'd be hard to adjust to trust when most of your day is spent with the untrustworthy. It'd be hard to believe in positive intentions around those who's intent is to harm. I believe all I'd have to do is find one beat up to hell child lying face down in evidence of her struggles to form a clear picture of the purveyor of darkness and sin. How black would that pit be from pole to pole.
This is why we can't look upon the light for His brightness of Truth and Light! Every dark corner intensifies His light! And why the stress of the two "lives" Christian's bear is so great and why people of your noble profession suffer such internal division. This is the "passage of good and evil" I spoke of earlier; the walk of the truly brave.
And so we seek a balance. I would think that this forum could serve some well, exposing God's love through fellowship. I suspect though you yearn for more light, more understanding maybe. Here are Paul's letter to the Ephesians - the blessings AND the responsibilities of the believer..
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The Blessings and the Responsibilities of Believers
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman][FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]The Blessings Christians Enjoy
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman][FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]The Responsibilities Christians Have
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Chosen by God; election (1:4)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To keep the unity of the Spirit (4:3-6)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Adoption into God’s family (1:5; 2:19)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To use our abilities for the church’s benefit (4:7-13)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Acceptance before God (1:6)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To keep growing and maturing (4:14, 15)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To put away old, sinful ways (4:17-24; 5:2-14)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Insight into God’s will (1:9)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To speak honestly and purely (4:25, 29)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]An eternal inheritance (1:11)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To do what the Spirit leads us to do (4:30)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]The seal of the Spirit (1:13; 2:18)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To imitate God (5:1)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]God’s mercy and love (2:4; 3:17-19)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To walk in love (5:2)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Wisdom and knowledge (1:17)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To find out what is acceptable to the Lord (5:10)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To make the most of our time (5:16)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Spiritual life (2:1, 5)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To be filled with the Spirit (5:18)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]The promise of eternal kindness (2:7)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To submit to one another (5:21)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]The knowledge that God’s plan for us is good (2:10)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To have marriages that honor God (5:22-33)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Unity and peace with all believers (2:11-18; 3:6)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To honor God in our families (6:1-4)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Heavenly citizenship (2:19)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To demonstrate integrity in the workplace (6:5-9)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]Access to God through Christ (3:12)
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[FONT=Times New Roman,Times New Roman]To stand strong against the forces of evil (6:10-18)
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Your walk on this passage between good and evil is a walk you must make alone Jullianne as I will make mine. All I really know is there's strength in numbers and a kind of vanity in faith of our ultimate goal of pleasing God.