Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[Powemm]

It takes the "same amount " of energy to be happy as it does to be miserable ..
Thank You God for bringing me the gift of your Son so I am able to choose Wich one ..
Heaven with you or hell apart from you ..
Be transformed (changed) by the "renewing" of your mind ... the mind is like a horse.... one can ride it like a horse.. Or one can let the horse drag you around ..
who are you allowing to whisper transgressions into your ear? And why would you choose to ride in a wasteland when there are valleys and streams of living water surrounded by mountains of gods coverage?
Why do you continue to venture into threads of wasteland ? What becomes of it but carnage and death? Pain and suffering ... These are the lands with no wells. Or the wells have run dry looking for a host to drink from..
Be sober! be vigelant !
the enemy prowls around like a roaring loin seeking whom he can devour..
the Lord is "your" God.. take refuge from the storm in Him and He will keep you from the fowlers snare.. we walk into them like blind sheep not knowing the voice of the shepherd . he is a mighty fortress.. A house built upon a rock.. He is solid ground ...

 

[Immawildthing]

[h=5]To all the people who blame others for THEIR problems:
GROW UP!!! It's no one else's fault that you are immature (and lets face it, stupid sometimes). It's your fault when you won't learn. It's your fault when you hurt others. It's your fault you keep the company you do. It's your fault you get offended by others. Stop blaming your parents, your brothers and sisters, your in-laws, your spouses, your children, and your friends. They are not responsible for your thoughts, your actions, and your mistakes. YOU should be.
Until you learn this, you will never be truely happy, and you will make the people you blame quite irrate. Blaming others for what you've done, will never get anything fixed.
Sincerely, The People You Blame.
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"I love life in spite of all that mars it. I love friendship, jokes and laughter."
-Tahar Ben Jelloun

Cheers to friendship!

 

[Powemm]

Im sitting here captivated by a realm where a veil was just lifted from over my eyes .. I'm stunned at the beauty of it and laughing at the same time at the stupidity I've been walking in .. I can't help but laugh out loud ...I
Sure Gods getting a real good laugh right about now too.. Deserving of it for sure ..."good one buddy, good one !"
putting it into words is rather difficult .. I think its because God just unraveled a mystery I've been bound up in ... I've seen golden scales and wheels and I'm sure this is going to seem like a
"DUH NELLIE!" moment for most ..but I was just in a thread where I let out a little part of me I intentionally put in a cell and
threw away the key... The part of me that scared me most about myself ... the part of me when the abuse was going on , I became ... I thought she was a hideous monster with snarling teeth and deserved to be punished ... but now I'm seeing she's been Locked away longer then before that time .. since she was a little girl .. I'm almost afraid to look at her .. I know her .. She's the little girl part of me who was fighting for her life ..the fighter ... I guess I thought, No! I never thought because it's like meeting a new person ..I'm just getting a good look at her ( this part of me)
Everything makes sense now .. and coming together .,
I put this part of me in a cell and even covered it up.., I didn't want to ever see it again ..I didn't want it to exist
The protector part of me ..in foster care I related my anger to the faces of hurt that came after me .. Their "look" matched my "feelings" ... I'm working through this openly so I can come back at look at all the pieces that I never knew were broken inside me.. I dont know if they were broken or just mis Matched in a lie I bought as a
Little girl .. apparently so ... So this is why when I was upset I was
More angry at being upset then by any person .. It also explains why I almost
Died in abuse .. The protector put in me
by God , I actually had in lockdown .... no winder I couldnt stand up for
Myself in so Many situations.. Also
Makes sense why God has been fueling this fire in me with a super booster fuel it seems
to light up like a torch ..It scared me to death until I just let a little bit of it out in a post .. I dont think I danger anything .. I just finally stood my ground .. Feels sorta ...., weird.. Bit for the first time in a very long time .. Balanced .. No winder the scales and wheels lol!! It's so ""weird, weird""putting all this together ...
I know people reading this are going to be like " okaaaaay". I know I would be on the outside looking in .. makes me laugh !
And yes! I see you there !! (smile). But I dont mind , I think the beautiful things of God should be shared in real time as they are happening .. It makes His glory more marvelous... and it's tender ..
now that I know what's been going on there's accountability in it .. what a gift to be given to me by God (thank you)
tears stream down in my freedom of it .. It's almost like knowing for the first time you've really been Sitting behind bars and
Look up and notice the door is open . This must be what prisoners feel like after being locked up fir years and years .. Not sure what to do with it yet in the world , but God is faithful and I know He will help me balance this out .. Like any gift , it's to be handled with care..." Especially" this one .. The Protector in all of us can be... well...., it can become a giant..
I see now how the wheel works out in a partnership or relationship of balance too.. Stepping up to the opposite side of where you're partner is .. They are on a high the balance if that is a lower profile , they're on a low the balance of that is higher .. It's all about balance . Maybe my wheels wont be so wobbly now, maybe the ride is about to get a little smoother .. This is like being a kid getting a new bike .. a bigger and better one .. everything is new .... First stop? Who knows !!!!!!!
I just know I'm. Riding !!!! Thank you father ! You are as you have always promised, my heavenly father bringing me into the perfect plan and will you have for my life .. Thanks ! Can I go ride now ? @@@@@ skid marks out the door

 

[arwen83]

Went out for coffee with a friend, and was made to feel guilty for spending money today. You know what? I am 30, you are 21. It's my money, I choose how I spend it. My bills are paid. She disapproves a lot of what I say and do. We are very different people. It's probably going to be one of those friendships where we won't keep in contact since the one thing that had connected us- school- will no longer exist. I need to be more selective in who I tell what. I just want to be understood and accepted, not criticized because I am doing something that they wouldn't.

 

[rachelsedge]

Funny how sometimes I think I've healed from a tear in my heart, but then something comes up, I see something, hear something, and it reminds me of the hurt and I realize I'm not as healed as I thought I was.

 

[arwen83]

I've decided that I need to go. I'm starting to save up money. This must happen. Worst comes to worst (and if i don't die lol), atleast I have the experience of traveling. I would never regret going. All else fails, atleast I can use the time and experience towards writing. I would no longer be a coward, stuck in my safe little world. For me to be able to grow, this stands in the way.

No more living my life vicariously through Bilbo Baggins....

"The world is not in your books and maps, its out there"
"Little by little, one travels far"

 

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that's so true!!!!!!!!

 

[zeroturbulence]

that's so true!!!!!!!!
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Wow what a beautiful picture, Error. It looks like fun!

 

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It is. And yes-it is always fun to sleep under the open sky. One of my fav things to do.

 

[MissCris]

I wish the weather would just get warm, already. I want to grow things! I want to plant our vegetable garden!

...I want to get the 300 tiny sprouting onions OUT of my house!

 

[MissCris]

I'm beginning to realize that the last few weeks of stress had a purpose. I feel...and this sounds a little weird to me, coming from me...but I feel very spiritually alive today. Spiritually malleable. I don't know how else to describe it. The last time I felt like this, God changed my whole life, and there was a moment when I knew for the first time that I was truly saved, despite having been baptized years before.

I don't get real emotional very often- I am best at displaying anger, and that just stinks. I was raised to suck up any softer emotions and keep them to myself because to express love, or sadness, or sometimes even pure joy, made my family uncomfortable. Bunch of emotionally handicapped people. Pssh.

So for me to be finding myself here, now, wanting to express how I feel...so strange. And difficult, in that I have no idea how.

Man, I'm really hungry. Sandwich time!

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Today has been a strange day. I haven't felt up to snuff really & don't know why.
I am starting to think more & more that maybe I should have let those doctors stick me in that sleep clinic thing they wanted to do. The thing that freaks me out is when I go in phases of half-dreaming...it's like I am awake & asleep all at once. I will even have conversations & I can audibly hear myself talking that it totally wakes me up but yet I will still carry on waiting for this other person in the dream to respond. Maybe I am just crazy.
The insane chick & her boyfriend moved out today...that was odd...because her & her brother moved in together,but he was rarely there. It was more of a pad for her & her bf to have sex & drink at 3-4 days of the week. Then her brother left a few weeks ago (I find all this out via the 80yr old couple across the hall from me) they say he's moved in with his aunt,now just his sister & her bf stay there. (wonderful!) Well,here it is 2 weeks later & I have been hearing a bunch of moving around & cleaning...now today a UHaul truck. The Old folks think they moved out. Yep. I do to. Now what??? More insane neighbors?
Won't matter I suppose...dunno how much longer I will be here either.
Talk about a stream of conscious nonsense.
One good thing happened today. The old lady gave me a piece of cheesecake she made!
She says "Jim,do like cheesecake?" I said..."ummm of course I like cheesecake,I'm a fat person,duh!"
We all had a laugh. Good times..good times.

 

[GreenNnice]

I was robbed last night, keyholed my truck, took a nice laptop.


I am thankful for the stuff I have , that I know from the peace and assurance of life, and, death, that to remain in Him, not bitter, not giving the Enemy an opening, an inroads, is what God wants to.see from me. Dear Lord...Amen. I will do just that now, right now, in fact, because that stuff is now given both to someone I pray for now, who needed it more, and, I know He has so much more in store for me, far past this time, far past this life, I concentrate on His Love, His mercy, His grace, God is ALWAYS in control, like Satan THINKING he got Jesus dead on the cross... ”Arise My Love! Arise My Love! The grave no longer has a hold on Thee.” I know materialism is all that was, something God makes me grow in faith from. All praise and glory to.God, thank you, Lord Jesus, You in me, I in You, living, walking, breathing, abundantly

 

[Powemm]

1 John 2:18
[ Warnings Against Denying the Son ] Dear children, this is the last hour; and as you have heard that the antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come. This is how we know it is the last hour.
1 John 2:22
Who is the liar? It is whoever denies that Jesus is the Christ. Such a person is the antichrist—denying the Father and the Son.
1 John 4:3
but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
2 John 1:7
I say this because many deceivers, who do not acknowledge Jesus Christ as coming in the flesh, have gone out into the world. Any such person is the deceiver and the antichrist.

 

[Markum1972]

I am starting to notice a pattern here.

Most of the people that have been single for a long time say that you shouldn't be looking for someone.

When I ask married people, they say that they were definitely looking for someone.

Hmmm... I think I am starting to figure this out.

 

[AmmiAmmiel]

Yes, indeed. If we look for someone, that is us looking to enact our will. Which distracts us from God's will, so we must be patient and seek to please The Lord first, then perhaps He'll connect our lives with someone else's through whom He enacts His love in our lives[: be at peace with this, or you'll find yourselves stumbling,..

 

[Markum1972]

True. However...
Which person would not actively search for their keys when they wanted them? Should we just wait and believe that if it is God's will for us to have the keys, God will bring them to us? Seems that there would be a lot of people not getting anywhere. Hmmmm

 

[zeroturbulence]

I did lose my keys today for awhile actually

 

[AmmiAmmiel]

True. However...
Which person would not actively search for their keys when they wanted them? Should we just wait and believe that if it is God's will for us to have the keys, God will bring them to us? Seems that there would be a lot of people not getting anywhere. Hmmmm

Lol, I'm not sayin we should just wait and do nothing,.. Be patient and actively searching for opportunities where God might manifest His will.

Say I were to loose the keys to my car one day. I'd actively search for them and pray that God brings me to them[: if I don't find them, it was not His will for me to find them. Enough said[: